Because I Want To - Grace R. Duncan Page 0,1

to understand what the secondary sexes meant and how to deal with them. As they began to comprehend the complexities of omega heats and the pheromones they gave off that attracted alphas, new medications were developed to suppress these natures—the heat in the omega and the alpha reactions. Sepelocycline helped the omegas suppress the heat and the pheromones that tempt alphas, though it didn’t get rid of it completely, much to most omegas’ frustration. Desinocycline helped the alphas suppress their instinct, helping them resist the pheromones and fight their own nature.

Despite all this new knowledge and the advances in science surrounding these sexes, there is still much that is not understood. Researchers have no easy explanation for the pair bond some alphas and omegas form, or why it causes the effects in the omega it does—binding them to the alpha and leaving them unable to have sex with anyone else from then on. No one has been able to figure out how a person becomes alpha, beta, or omega. No matter how much research is done, nothing in standard genetics seems to be obvious. Nature is not random, yet for all the scientists could discern, this was.

With so many questions, research continues.

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I’d like to mention here that I drew my Omegaverse from a few different places. The canon within this story is my depiction of the reality surrounding secondary sexes and the complications that come with it. I don’t go into extensive detail in this story, though I do hope to explore this world more in the future.

Thanks for reading!

Chapter 1

“Why not me?”

“What?”

Matt dropped his head into his hands, then rubbed his face. “Never mind. I didn’t mean to speak out loud.” He turned and brushed at Adam’s hair. “Just letting my mind wander.”

Adam seemed to accept the smile Matt pulled onto his face, if the slight smile he had was anything to go by. “You do that a lot.”

“I’m just thinking up new stories.”

Adam snorted. “The characters in your head are talking, right?”

“Yeah. Something like that.” Matt took care of the condom, tossing it into the garbage can next to the bed, then picked up his jeans and underwear and pulled them on. “Sandwiches okay?”

“Sure,” Adam said. “You don’t have to do that.”

“I know. How long have you been going through heat?” Adam kept his silence, since they were both well aware of the two years since they’d gone from best friends to best friends who have sex.

When Adam didn’t speak, Matt shook his head. “And I’ve been helping you deal with this since. So shut up and lay there.”

Adam laughed. “Yeah, yeah. Turkey?”

“Got it.” Matt couldn’t resist leaning down and leaving a kiss on Adam’s temple. He shouldn’t do things like that. It would only hurt when he didn’t get that kind of affection back, but Matt couldn’t seem to convince himself to stop.

He left Adam in bed, grabbed his T-shirt as he crossed the room, and tugged it on before going down the stairs. Matt tried to simply not think while he piled the turkey, cheese, lettuce, and tomato onto the bread. He didn’t need to think because it was only going to depress him again.

One day he was going to manage to stop that line of thought. His feelings for Adam grew every time they went to bed together. Every time Adam called Matt’s name through orgasm, every time their eyes met when Matt filled Adam’s body, it got harder and harder to hide his feelings.

Feelings Adam didn’t return.

He couldn’t remember a time he didn’t love Adam. They’d been together since they were two, and Matt had never so much as looked at someone else. Adam had never dated, that was true, but he’d insisted he simply wasn’t going to. When Matt prodded Adam for more on that, Adam kept his mouth shut, so Matt was forced to let it go.

It was the only thing Adam wouldn’t tell him—why he wouldn’t date, why he hesitated over that sort of thing. The refusal was beyond frustrating, but there wasn’t anything Matt could do about it. He knew part of what Adam wouldn’t say and why—he didn’t want to hurt Matt’s feelings when he admitted he couldn’t return them—but not all of it. And while he’d never said as much out loud, Matt was pretty sure he knew Adam well enough to know that. So Matt did his best to not let it get to him and just focused on being the kind of friend Adam