person who stabbed him hurt him again? Will he survive a second attempt?
Oh God.
My knees go weak.
Birdie, stay strong. Winter doesn’t need to add worrying about you to his list of shit to deal with tonight.
He shoves his fingers through his hair, his face revealing his torment. “Fuck, angel, I’m sorry I had to bring this shit home. And I’m sorry I fucked up our plans for tonight.”
Deep breath, Birdie. “What happened?”
“Ransom and I got into it with some guys on our way home, but I don’t want you worrying. We handled the situation.”
I know that’s all he’ll give me because after living with him in Melbourne for these last nine months, he never gives me much more than that when something goes down. And things have gone down a few times. Winter warned me before I moved that things weren’t good here and he was right. And as much as he tells me not to worry, I do. However, I keep most of that worry on the inside like I’m going to do tonight.
“Will you be okay until you see the doctor tomorrow?”
He nods. “Yeah, I’ll be fine.”
I wish he’d go to the hospital, but I know his mind is made up and to try to force him will only end in us arguing. “What about infection?”
“You sterilised everything. I cleaned the wound. It’ll be good until Doc can check it out. Don’t worry about me, Birdie. I’ve survived worse shit than this.”
“How many times have you had to stitch yourself up?”
He brings his hand up and smooths my hair off my face. His touch is gentle. Loving. “That’s all in the past, angel. I’d rather talk about you. Did you give yourself the injection?”
Winter always refuses to talk about his military days. I don’t blame him, so I let it go. Maybe one day he’ll share that part of his past with me. “I did.”
“All went okay?”
“Yes. I was almost as brave as you were stitching yourself up. Actually, no, I was braver.”
His face breaks out in a smile and I’m glad I could lighten the mood. “Yeah, I bet you were.”
“I feel so brave that at this point, I’m pretty sure I can do the shot by myself every night if I have to.” I’m still trying to lighten the mood, but there is some truth to my statement. Now that I’ve done it once, I’ve broken the fear barrier and I really do think I’d be okay on my own.
“Baby,” he says, pulling me close, “tonight was fucked up, but I’m hopeful I won’t get caught out again. I’m doing my damnedest to be home for this every night.”
I try to keep my body from pressing against his wound as I say, “I know you are, but I want you to know that if stuff comes up that you need to deal with, I’m good now. I’ve got this.”
“Fuck, Birdie, I don’t want you to do this on your own.” He tightens his hold on me. “And stop pulling away. I want you close.”
“I don’t want to hurt you.”
“You’re not going to hurt me.” His tone has turned a little impatient, which tells me he’s feeling some stress. Winter is the most patient man I know and only gets like this when things feel out of control for him.
Against my better judgement, I give him what he wants; I move into him and put my arms around him. Looking up into his eyes, I smile. “Something happened to me tonight after I gave myself that injection.”
“Tell me.”
“I don’t feel so wound up about everything anymore. I feel calm now and believe we’re going to make a baby.”
“You didn’t believe it before?”
“Kind of. Maybe. But there was always this disbelief about it happening or working. I don’t know how to explain it and I know it sounds weird, but now that I’ve had the first injection, it feels very real to me and I have faith that I don’t think I had before.”
He brushes his lips over mine. “This is the best thing I’ve heard all day.”
My smile turns sexy. “No, I’m about to tell you the best thing you’ll hear all day.”
“What?”
Pulling his face down to mine, I whisper in his ear, “When you’re up to it, I want sex. Like, really want it.” Last night, Winter was right: I didn’t really want sex. I wanted to make him happy and I thought having sex would do that. I also wanted to give my mind a