The art of mending: a novel - By Elizabeth Berg Page 0,1

and that, making it shine hard in the sunlight. “Are these real diamonds?” I once asked, and she said, “Why have them if they’re not?”

That Saturday morning, my father saw me sitting on the floor and came over to survey my neat stack of dollar bills, my coins piled high. “How much have you got there?” he asked.

“Forty-seven dollars and eighty-three cents.” I kept my smile tight to hold back my pride and stuck all my fingers between all my toes for the low pull of pleasure.

My father whistled between his teeth in a falling-bomb way I greatly admired and could not emulate despite hours of practice. He took his glasses off to polish them on the bottom of his T-shirt, then held them up for inspection: still dirty—he never managed to get them completely clear. “How’d you get that much?” He resettled his glasses on his face, pushing them up snug against his nose, a gesture I associated so strongly with him that I reflexively took issue with others doing it.

I said I’d been saving for a long time. I told him about the groceries I’d carried in for Mrs. Riley, “Mrs. Five Operations,” my mother called her, for her incessant replaying of the laminectomies she’d endured. I’d pulled weeds for Muriel and Helen Lockerby, the two wild-haired old-lady sisters who lived around the corner. I’d babysat for little Rachel Thompson every Thursday after school while her mother went to run errands, and I’d occasionally walked their dog, an arthritic old German shepherd named Heintz, who seemed to me to grimace every time he lifted his leg. I’d made pot holders and sold them around the neighborhood—once, a man who answered the door in his bathrobe had bought my entire week’s inventory, which made him in my eyes equally wonderful and weird. Also, though I did not tell my father this, I’d recently found a ten-dollar bill on the street, and I’d made no effort whatsoever to find the owner.

My father told me to wait for just a minute and disappeared. I sat immobile, my high spirits on hold, because I thought he was going to consult with my mother about how much I’d have to share with my eight-year-old sister, Caroline, who had saved little, and my seven-year-old brother, Steve, who had saved nothing at all. But that’s not what happened. Instead, my father reappeared, holding his wallet. He took out a twenty-dollar bill and handed it to me. Mutely, I put it on the bottom of my pile, so no one would see. But I found out later that each of us kids had received the same gift.

I still remember what I brought home from the fair that day: a lantern that glowed Gatsby green in the dark, which I intended to take under the covers with me to read by; a bag of Tom Thumb doughnuts so redolent with the scent of cinnamon sugar it nearly levitated me; a poster of a brown mare and her foal, lying in a field full of daisies. The rest of the money I’d spent on rides and on chances to win something big on the midway. Over and over I tried, and over and over the carnies at the tacky wooden booths smiled and said, “Sorry. Want to try again?” They knew what I’d say. From the time I was quite small, I had about me a certain air of heedless determination.

When my funds were gone, I went to the blanket my parents had spread out near the edge of the fairgrounds. This was our meeting place, our refueling station—our family went to the fair once a year and stayed there all day. We kept a cooler filled with drinks and sandwiches and fruit, deli containers of various salads, Oreos and Chips Ahoy!—all this though we knew we would be gorging on fair food. There were also pillows and Band-Aids, suntan lotion and insect repellent, aspirin and a couple of Ace bandages. My parents took turns manning the station, sitting in a lawn chair and amusing themselves in their own way—my mother flipping through fashion magazines or crocheting, my father doing crossword puzzles or reading one of the historical tomes he so enjoyed. He tried often to interest us kids in history, saying it was invaluable for putting things into perspective. “You think something’s really great?” he’d say. “A long time ago, there was something just as good or better. You think something’s really bad? Look in the past—you’ll