and places his phone facedown on the island. Inches away from the torte.
“The only person I want to give attention to now is you,” he says.
He moves away from the phone to bring the decanted red wine to the table and is awarded with a sincere smile.
Thomas’s flowers are placed in the vase in the center of the table. Candles are lit. Nina Simone’s sultry voice fills the air.
Thomas’s wineglass is refilled twice. His cheeks grow slightly flushed; his gestures more expansive.
Thomas offers up a bite of his lamb: “This is the best piece.”
Our eyes lock.
“You seem different tonight,” he says, stretching out his hand.
“Maybe it’s us being together back in the house.”
He is awarded another brief kiss, then contact is broken.
“Sweetheart? Have you heard anything more from that private investigator?”
His question seemingly comes out of nowhere; it feels discordant on this romantic evening. But then, Thomas has always been protective. He knows how unsettling it was for me to receive the e-mail from the investigator hired by Subject 5’s family.
This is not the first time he has asked whether the private investigator has instigated more contact.
“Nothing since I responded that I would not violate confidentiality by relinquishing my notes on her,” he is told.
Thomas nods approvingly. “You’re doing the right thing. A client’s privacy is sacred.”
“Thank you.”
The unpleasant memory is skirted past; tonight’s agenda is already complex enough.
It is time to bring the glass cake pedestal to the table.
He is served a generous three-inch slice.
The edge of his fork slices through the rich, thick mousse. He raises the chocolate confection to his lips.
He closes his eyes. Savors it. “Mmm. Is this from Dominique?”
“No, La Patisserie,” he is told.
“Delicious. I’m almost too full to eat it.”
A pause.
“You’ll work it off tomorrow at the gym.”
He nods and takes another bite. “Aren’t you having any?”
“Of course.”
The torte melts on the tongue. No one would know it was not purchased at a specialty bakery, just as no one would be able to detect the taste of the two hazelnuts that were ground up and included in the batter.
When Thomas’s plate is clean, he leans back in his chair.
But he cannot settle here. A hand is offered to him: “Come.”
He is led to a small love seat in the library and given a glass of Dalva port. The space is cozy, with its Steinway piano and gas fireplace. His eyes flit around the room, alighting on original paintings by Wyeth and Sargent, and then a whimsical bronze sculpture of a motorcycle, before landing on the silver-framed photograph of me as a teenager, astride Folly, the chestnut mare, on our Connecticut grounds, my red hair peeking out from beneath my riding helmet. Angled beside that picture is one of our wedding day.
Thomas wore black tie; the tuxedo was purchased especially for the wedding, since he hadn’t worn one since his high school prom. The bridal gown, with its lace top and tulle skirt, was custom-made; my father had to ask a business associate to call in a favor at Vera Wang because the engagement was so short.
My father did not approve of the low dip in the dress that reached nearly to the small of my back, but it was too late to have it altered. As a compromise, a long veil was worn during the ceremony at St. Luke’s, the church my mother and father still attend.
Our parents flank us in the photo. Thomas’s family had flown in from a small town outside San Jose, California, two days before the wedding. We’d only met once before; Thomas dutifully called his mother and father every week, but he wasn’t particularly close to them or to his older brother, Kevin, who worked as a construction foreman.
My father is unsmiling in the photograph.
Prior to proposing, Thomas had driven to my parents’ Connecticut estate to ask for my hand in marriage. He’d concealed this from me; Thomas was skilled at keeping a secret.
My father appreciated the nod to tradition. He clapped Thomas on the back and they celebrated with brandy and Arturo Fuente cigars. However, the following morning, my father requested my presence at lunch.
He asked only one question. It was direct, as befitting his nature. It came even before we placed our orders: “Are you certain?”
“I am.”
Love is an emotional state, but my symptoms were highly physical: A smile formed at the mere mention of Thomas’s name, my step felt lighter, even my core temperature—which since my childhood had been consistently recorded at 96.2, well below the