Anne Perry s Christmas Mysteries Page 0,68

the infinite possibilities of failure?

He did not want to disappoint her. She was still so much in love with him. He could see it in her eyes, the sudden flush to her skin if she caught him looking at her with his own emotions too naked in his face. Could he ever live up to what she thought of him? Sometimes being handsome was not a blessing. It led people-women-to hope for more from one than one could live up to; it ignited dreams that were too big for the reality of what any man could be.

The manor house loomed up ahead, rising out of the virgin snow as the dark trees of the driveway parted. That was a dream in stone. Did Peter Connaught ever feel the weight of past glory crushing him? Did the ghosts expect too much?

Was Clarice building a drama of murder out of a simple domestic tragedy, weaving together facts into a picture that would create sorrow and injustice, not solve it?

Dominic thought again with a shiver of his earlier acquaintance with her family, and the murder of Unity Bellwood. He had been a curate staying in her father's house to further his studies. The Reverend Ramsay Parmenter had been a good mentor, but a conventional man of passionately orthodox views. When Unity Bellwood, modern-thinking, pregnant, and unmarried, was pushed down a stairway to her death, the Reverend Parmenter became a major suspect.

But it was Clarice's beautiful, selfish, and deadly mother who had been at the core of it with her obsessive fantasy that Dominic was as much in love with her as she was with him.

It had been a time of grief, shock, and fear for the whole family. Clarice had been the bravest of them, the most willing to see and face the dreadful truth, whatever the pain, or the price.

He lengthened his stride. He would believe her this time. Better to have pursued it and been proven wrong than to run away into blind comfort. That would lie between them always.

He reached the great oak front door and pulled the bell. It was beginning to snow again, huge white flakes falling like petals.

The door opened, and the butler welcomed him in. Sir Peter was in his office, but he appeared within moments, smiling, offering tea and crumpets, apologizing because he thought there was almost certainly no cake.

"We should have mince pies," he said, shaking his head. "I'll make sure we have them next time you come."

"Just tea would be excellent, thank you," Dominic answered, following Peter's elegant figure into the huge withdrawing room. "And a little of your time." The warmth engulfed him like an embrace. The dog in front of the hearth stood up and stretched luxuriously, then padded over to see who he was and make sure he should be allowed in.

"What can I do for you?" Peter asked when they were seated. "How are you settling in?"

"I'm afraid I have very hard news indeed," Dominic replied. "I have been told not to break it yet, but-"

"You are not leaving?" Peter said in alarm.

"No. Not in the foreseeable future. I would like not to leave at all, but that is up to the bishop." Dominic was startled by how passionately he meant that. He longed to stay here, to be his own master, free to succeed-or fail-on his own beliefs, not Spindlewood's.

"I don't understand," Peter replied, confusion clear on his dark face.

As briefly as possible, Dominic told him what had happened, including Fitzpatrick's admonition to tell no one yet, and his own reasons for not obeying.

"Oh, dear," Peter said quietly. He looked crushed. "I liked him enormously, you know."

Dominic believed him; he did not even have to weigh it in his mind. The sorrow in Peter's face was real-a pain one could sense in the room almost like a third presence.

"The more I learn of him, the more I realize how much he was loved," Dominic said gently. "I feel a loss myself, and I never even met him. That is why I intend to find out what happened. I don't know whom to trust, or where to begin." He smiled ruefully, a trifle self-conscious. "I have a brother-in-law who is a policeman, a detective. Suddenly I appreciate how appallingly difficult his job is. I have no real authority to ask anyone questions. I am an outsider here, no matter how much I want to belong, but I feel a duty to find the truth of how the Reverend Wynter