The Year I Became Isabella Ande - Jessica Sorensen Page 0,37
a strangled laugh flees from my mouth.
Kai grins at the sound. “See? Deep down, you agree with me. You just don’t want to admit it.”
“I don’t agree with you,” I insist. “Kyler’s not boring. He’s just quiet and shy.”
He makes a choking, gurgling sound then gapes at me. “Kyler’s not shy at all, Isa. He’s the most arrogant, self-assured asshole I’ve ever met.”
“He might be that way to you,” I say. “But to me, he seems quiet and nice.”
“Wrong again. He’s not nice. Not when you know him like I do.” His features harden as he shakes his head in irritation. “My life would’ve been so much easier if he’d gone farther away for college, but no, he had to go here so he could remind me daily who the better Meyers is.”
Hmm . . . perhaps Kai’s one-eighty transformation might have had something to do with his brother.
“Okay, I get you’re not a fan of your brother.” I tread with caution, because I don’t want to hurt his feelings, but at the same time, I feel bitter over how Kai treated me in seventh grade. While Kyler hasn’t been my best friend or anything, he’s always been nice to me, said hi to me in the hallways, and always stands up for me while I’m being picked on. Kai, on the other hand, spends most of his time teasing me, and he’s never offered me an apology for telling his friend I was a stalker. “But Kyler’s been nice to me.”
“I’ve been nicer to you more than he has.” He shifts his weight, seeming uneasy about something. Perhaps how he treated me in the past? I’ll never know, since he won’t say anything about it aloud. “Maybe not all the time, but definitely more than he has.”
“You’ve also been mean to me more than he has, too.” My hands shake as I remember the day he ripped out my heart and stomped on it.
“Most of the time, I’m just teasing you.” His voice is a drop unsteady as he tiptoes around the big, ugly elephant in the room. “And I only do that, because I’m comfortable around you and you don’t expect anything from me.” He shrugs, offering me a small, oddly sheepish smile. “You treat me like a normal guy. You never use me to get to my brother.” Another shrug, like that’s that.
So, he definitely has issues with Kyler. But now that I think about it, I’m not that surprised. Kai always has kind of lived in Kyler’s shadow when it comes to sports and girls and grades. It’s not like he’s not good at any of those things. It’s just that he’s always one step behind Kyler, almost perfect, but not quite.
But he’s way funnier.
Maybe I should tell him that.
Be nicer to him than he’s been to me. Try to cheer him up like I used to.
“I’m going to stop you right there,” he says. “Because I can already see you trying to put me together, and no one can put me together, Isa. I’m all kinds of fucked up.” He swings around me and backs for the doorway. “And you still owe me a present for carrying your bags up the stairs. You better make sure to bring it to school with you on Monday; otherwise, I’m going to have to start charging interest.” He winks at me before turning on his heels and leaving my room.
The silence sets in as I take in the bare walls around me. “This is so depressing,” I mutter. “There’s no way I can look at this for the next nine months.”
An idea smacks me in the head. One that will more than likely get me into trouble with my parents, but fuck it. I’m already on the permanent Hate List with them. Besides, I didn’t work so hard to become a more confident person just to flush it down the toilet the moment I got home.
THE MURAL’S GOING to take a while and requires way more paint supplies than I have. Plus, I’m not the most fantastic painter, but I do know someone who’s an amazing artist.
I pick up my phone and call Indigo.
“Hey, I need a favor,” I say after Indigo answers my call.
She yawns. “Dude, Isa, I love you to death, but I just laid down to take a nap.”
“Sorry. I’ll make it quick.” I flop down on my unmade bed and stare up at my lame-ass, boring ceiling. “I need you to pick me up