my phone’s weather app. Twelve degrees outside. I stand, pad to the thermostat on the landing.
I wonder what Rita’s husband is up to. It’s been ages since I saw him, since I looked for him.
Back at my desk, I gaze across the room, across the park, at the Russell house. Its windows loom empty. Ethan, I think. I’ve got to get to Ethan. I felt him waver last night; “I’m scared,” he’d said, his eyes gone wide, almost wild. A child in distress. It’s my duty to help him. Whatever has happened to Jane, whatever has become of her, I must protect her son.
What’s the next move?
I chew my lip. I log on to the chess forum. I start to play.
An hour later, past noon, and nothing has occurred to me.
I’ve just kissed the bottle to the wineglass—again, it’s past noon—and think. The problem has been droning in the back of my mind like ambient noise: How to reach Ethan? Every few minutes I glance across the park, as though the answer might be scrawled on the wall of the house. I can’t call his landline; he doesn’t have his own phone; if I were somehow to attempt to signal to him, his father—or that woman—might see me first. No email address, he told me, no Facebook account. Might as well not exist.
He’s almost as isolated as I am.
I sit back in the chair, sip. Set the glass down. Watch the noonday light crawl over the windowsill. The computer pings. I move a knight, hook him around the chessboard. Await another move.
The clock on-screen reads 12:12. Nothing from Wesley—surely he’ll call? Or should I try again? I reach for my phone, swipe it to life.
A chime on the desktop—Gmail. I grasp my mouse, guide the cursor away from the chessboard. Click on the browser. With my other hand, I bring the wineglass to my lips. It glows in the sun.
I peer over the lip of the glass at the inbox, empty except for a single message, the subject line blank, the sender’s name in bold.
Jane Russell.
My teeth chink on the glass.
I stare at the screen. The air around me is suddenly thin.
My hand quakes as I place the glass on the desk, the wine trembling within. The mouse bulges against my palm as I grip it. I’ve stopped breathing.
The cursor travels to her name. Jane Russell.
I click.
The message opens, a field of white. There’s no text, just an attachment icon, a tiny paper clip. I double-click on it.
The screen goes black.
Then an image begins to load, slowly, band by band. Grainy bars of dark gray.
I’m transfixed. I still can’t breathe.
Line upon line of darkness on-screen, like a curtain slowly falling. A moment passes. Another.
Then—
—then a tangle of . . . branches? No: hair, dark and knotty, in close-up.
A curve of fair skin.
An eye, closed, running vertical, edged with a frill of lashes.
It’s someone on their side. I’m looking at a sleeping face.
I’m looking at my sleeping face.
The picture suddenly expands, the bottom half bursting into view—and there I am, my head, in full. A strand of hair trailing across my brow. My eyes clasped shut, my mouth slightly open. My cheek submerged in the pillow.
I bolt to my feet. The chair topples behind me.
Jane has sent a photograph of me asleep. The idea downloads slowly in my brain, the way that picture did, stuttering line by line.
Jane has been in my house at night.
Jane has been in my bedroom.
Jane has watched me sleep.
I stand there, stunned, in deafening silence. And then I see the ghostly figures in the lower-right corner. A time stamp—today’s date, 02:02 a.m.
This morning. Two o’clock. How is it possible? I look at the email address bracketed beside the sender’s name:
guesswhoannagmail
69
So not Jane, then. Someone hiding behind her name. Someone mocking me.
My thoughts aim like an arrow straight downstairs. David, behind that door.
I clutch myself through my robe. Think. Don’t panic. Stay calm.
Has he forced the door? No—I found the stepladder as I’d left it.
So—my hands are shivering against my body; I lean forward, splay them on the desk—so did he make a copy of my key? I heard sounds on the landing that night I led him to bed; had he roamed the house, stolen the key from the kitchen?
Except I saw it on its hook just an hour ago, and I barred the basement door shortly after he left—there was no way back in.
Unless—but of course, of course there was a way back in: He