The witching hour - By Anne Rice Page 0,549

Christmas tree she’d never seen. It filled the whole window to the side porch. And only a small sprinkling of needles lay beneath it on the polished floor. Wild, it looked, primitive, like part of the woods come inside.

She went to the fireplace, knelt down, and placed another small log on the blaze.

“Why have you tried to hurt Michael?” she whispered, staring into the flames.

“I have not tried to hurt him. ”

“You are lying to me. Have you tried to hurt Aaron too?”

“I do as you command me to do, Rowan.” The voice was soft and deep as always. “My world is pleasing you.”

She rested back on her heels, arms folded, eyes misting, so that the flames were softened into a great flickering blur.

“He is not to suspect anything, do you hear me?” she whispered.

“I always hear you, Rowan.”

“He is to believe everything is as it was.”

“That is my wish, Rowan. We are in accord. I dread his enmity because it will make you unhappy. I will do only as you wish.”

But it couldn’t go on forever, and suddenly the fear that gripped her was so total that she couldn’t speak or move. She couldn’t attempt to disguise her feelings. She could not retreat into an inner sanctum of her mind as Aaron had told her to do. She sat there, shivering, staring at the flames.

“How will it end, Lasher? I don’t know how to do what you want of me.”

“You know, Rowan.”

“It will take years of study. Without a deeper understanding of you, I can’t hope to begin.”

“Oh, but you know all about me, Rowan. And you seek to deceive me. You love me but you do not love me. You would lure me into the flesh if you knew how in order to destroy me.”

“Would I?”

“Yes. It is an agony to feel your fear and your hatred, when I know what happiness waits for both of us. When I can see so far.”

“What would you have? The body of a man already alive? With consciousness knocked out of him through some sort of trauma, so that you could begin your fusion unimpeded by his mind? That’s murder, Lasher.”

Silence.

“Is that what you want? For me to commit murder? Because we both know it could be done that way.”

Silence.

“And I won’t commit that crime for you. I won’t kill one single living being so that you can live.”

She closed her eyes. She could actually hear him gathering, hear the pressure building, hear the draperies rustling as he moved against them, writhing and filling the room around her, and brushing against her cheeks and her hair.

“No. Let me alone,” she sighed. “I want to wait for Michael.”

“He will not be enough for you now, Rowan. It causes me pain to see you weep. But I am speaking the truth.”

“God, I hate you,” she whispered. She wiped at her eyes with the back of her hand. Through the blur of her tears she looked at the huge green tree.

“Ah, but you don’t hate me, Rowan,” he said. Fingers caressing her hair, stroking it back away from her forehead, tiny fingers stroking her neck.

“Leave me alone now, Lasher,” she pleaded. “If you love me, leave me alone.”

Leiden. She knew it was the dream again and she wanted to wake up. Also the baby needed her. She could hear it crying. I want to leave the dream. But they were all gathered at the windows, horrified by what was happening to Jan van Abel, the mob tearing him limb from limb.

“It wasn’t kept secret,” said Lemle. “It’s impossible for ignorant people to understand the importance of experimentation. What you do when you keep it secret is merely take the responsibility on yourself.”

“In other words, protecting them,” said Larkin.

He pointed to the body on the table. How patiently the man lay there, with his eyes open and all the tiny budlike organs shivering inside. Such little arms and legs.

“I can’t think with the baby crying.”

“You have to see the larger picture, the greater gain.”

“Where is Petyr? Petyr must be frantic after what’s happened to Jan van Abel.”

“The Talamasca will take care of him. We’re waiting for you to begin.”

Impossible. She stared at the little man with the truncated arms and legs and the tiny organs. Only the head was normal. That is a normal-sized head.

“One fourth of the size of the body, to be exact.”

Yes, the familiar proportion, she thought. Then the horror seized her as she stared down at it. But they were breaking