The Wicked King (The Folk of the Air #2) - Holly Black Page 0,83
force myself to lean forward again. They have the same black hair, the same cheekbones. All I have to do is pretend.
The next day, they bring me a pitcher of clear river water, which I guzzle gratefully. The day after that, they begin to prepare me to return to the surface.
The High King has made a bargain to get me back.
I think back over the many commands I gave him, but none was specific enough to have ordered his paying a ransom for my safe return. He had been free of me, and now he is willingly bringing me back.
I do not know what that means. Perhaps politics demanded it, perhaps he really, really didn’t like going to meetings.
All I know is that I am giddy with relief, wild with terror that this is some kind of a game. If we do not go to the surface, I fear I will not be able to hide the pain of disappointment.
Balekin “glamours” me again, making me repeat my loyalty to them, my love, my murderous intent toward Cardan.
Balekin comes to the cave, where I am pacing back and forth, each scuff of my bare feet on the stone loud in my ears. I have never been so much alone, and I have never had to play a role for this long. I feel hollowed out, diminished.
“When we return to Elfhame, we won’t be able to see each other often,” he says, as though this is something I will greatly miss.
I am so jumpy that I do not trust myself to speak.
“You will come to Hollow Hall when you can.”
I wonder at the idea that he anticipates living in Hollow Hall, that he doesn’t expect to be put in the Tower. I suppose his freedom is part of the price of my release, and I am surprised all over again that Cardan agreed to pay it.
I nod.
“If I need you, I will give you a signal, a red cloth dropped in your path. When you see it, you must come immediately. I expect that you will be able to fabricate some excuse.”
“I will,” I say, my voice coming out too loud in my ears.
“You must regain the High King’s trust, get him alone, and then find a way to kill him. Do not attempt it if people are around. You must be clever, even if it takes more than one meeting. And perhaps you can find out more of your father’s schemes. Once Cardan is dead, we will need to move fast to secure the military.”
“Yes,” I say. I take a breath and then dare ask what I really want to know. “Do you have the crown?”
He frowns. “Very nearly.”
For a long moment, I do not speak. I let the silence linger.
Into it, Balekin speaks. “Grimsen needs you to finish your work before he can make it. He needs my brother dead.”
“Ah,” I say, my mind racing. Once, Balekin risked himself to save Cardan, but now that Cardan stands between him and the crown, he seems willing enough to sacrifice his brother. I try to make sense of that, but I can’t focus. My thoughts keep spiraling away.
Balekin smiles a shark’s grin. “Is something the matter?”
I am almost broken.
“I feel a little faint,” I say. “I don’t know what could be wrong. I remember eating. At least I think I remember eating.”
He gives me a concerned look and calls for a servant. In a few moments, I am brought a platter of raw fish, oysters, and inky roe. He watches in disgust as I devour it.
“You will avoid all charms, do you understand? No rowan, no bundles of oak, ash and thorn. You will not wear them. You will not so much as touch them. If you are given one, you will cast it into a fire as soon as you can conceal doing so.”
“I understand,” I say. The servant has brought no more fresh water for me, but wine instead. I drink it greedily with no care for the strange aftertaste or how it goes to my head.
Balekin gives me more commands, and I try to listen, but by the time he leaves, I am dizzy from the wine, exhausted and sick.
I curl up on the cold floor of my cell and for a moment, right before I close my eyes, I can almost believe I am in the grand room they have been conjuring for me with their glamours. Tonight, the stone feels like a feather bed.