The Whore of Babylon, a Memoir - By Katrina Prado Page 0,26

there is some sort of a connection between us.

Desire propels me forward, but Sister Margaret’s firm grip stops me.

“You cannot go where they’re going.”

Arrested, I blink away the tears. “I want my daughter.”

Sister Margaret steps between me and the three retreating girls, looking up at me with those ebullient gray eyes. She smiles.

“Tell me dear, don’t you have any faith?”

September 2, 2002

“Look, I’m not trying to be a bitch here, but the Labor Day weekend is coming up and we’re still waiting on your final accounts payable reports so we can finish the July financials,” Carmelita says, frowning as she talks. She leans forward, hands folded tightly in front of her, elbows planted firmly on her desk regarding me a moment.

I stare down at the dregs of coffee in my cup, which rests in my lap. The foment in the pit of my stomach could momentarily be staunched if only I took a sip, but I can’t.

“This isn’t like you, Margot. You’ve always been such a super achiever. Connie in Accounts Receivable says you even dropped out of the advanced Excel class you were taking at Los Medanos. I know you want to get out of doing just A/P work and I’d like to bump you up to assistant bookkeeper, but you don’t show up for work. You don’t return my phone calls.”

It’s only eleven twenty in the morning but I attempt to picture myself on my lunch hour, gazing contentedly at the magazine rack at Long’s, letting my mind meander across outrageous headlines of the glossy covers, but I can’t do that either. A single tear falls from my cheek.

“Robyn has run away,” I say, scraping the tear from my face. There. I’ve said it. Acknowledged it publicly to my outside world. At once it feels terrifying.

Carmelita’s jaw drops. Her perfectly manicured eyebrows rise in shock. I relate the abbreviated version of events to her, keeping as much emotion out of my voice as I can.

“The National Center for Missing and Exploited Children has faxed her picture to police all over the country. Also to airports and bus stations.”

“My God, Margot, I had no idea.” Carmelita sits back in her chair. Her hands fall to her lap and her shoulders drop. “Is there anything I can—we can do from here?”

I shake my head. I share the suspicion that Robyn might be living somewhere in San Francisco, but omit the notion that she might be prostituting herself, or worse, being pimped out by BLU BOY.

“Since she’s still considered a runaway, the F.B.I.’s CASKU unit won’t get involved.”

“CASKU?”

“Child Abduction and Serial Killer Unit,” I say in a barely audible tone.

“My God,” Carmelita’s hand rises involuntarily to her mouth. She looks as if she will be sick. Her eyes dart from me to the framed picture of her son and daughter at the corner of her desk.

“Everybody’s been interviewed. Teachers, her friends at school. Jenny’s been called into the police station twice, but the only thing she’s repeatedly stated is that she got a phone call from Robyn telling her that she’s okay and living in San Francisco.”

I close my eyes, letting the fingers of one hand press against the flames battering my gut. In my mind’s eye I picture the foil wrapper of the Rolaids I left on the desk in my office.

“The police checked something called the LUDS on Jenny’s phone in order to find the origination of Robyn’s call. They traced it to a payphone on O’Farrell Street.” I skip the part about the pay phone being located inside the O’Fallell Theatre, which features live strip shows.

Carmelita begins gathering the sheaf of papers on her desk, as if she were brushing a pile of leaves together.

“Don’t worry about this,” she says of the reports. “Connie can fill in for you and get these—”

Just then, Belinda, the secretary pokes her head in the door.

“Sorry to interrupt,” she says to Carmelita and then angles her gaze towards me.

“Your husband Rob’s on the phone. He says it’s urgent.”

I stand up before I remember the cold cup of coffee in my lap. It plashes to the carpet, making mottled, toothy stains. I snatch up the receiver of Carmelita’s phone and jab the flashing button.

“Rob?”

“She called!” he says. The hope in his voice makes my heart nearly lurch from my chest.

“Where are you?”

“At home,” he says.

My mind refuses to understand the sequence of events. It’s eleven-thirty on a Thursday morning. How can Rob be home? How can Robyn have called him and not me?

“What