Where the Lost Wander_ A Novel - Amy Harmon Page 0,124

wash.”

“I’ll get you a fresh shirt,” I whisper. “And your soap and towel.” He protests, but I turn away—I run away—and he lets me go. I search his packs just inside the tent with shaking hands and sip some water from the canteen John left beside me while I was sleeping.

When I reach the creek, he’s already stripped off everything but his pants and submerged himself in the water, washing most of the blood from his skin and hair. He seems more concerned with the dun and is using a tin cup to pour water over his back and his legs, cleaning away the gore and the grime. The horse has a cut on his flank about an inch wide, but it oozes like it’s deep. I hand John the soap and then sink down into the grass with his shirt and towel, not trusting myself to stand.

Some of the blood is John’s. He wasn’t completely honest about that. A long, shallow slice crisscrosses his stomach, and there’s a small gash on his cheekbone.

“Your satchel is there.” He points with his chin, indicating the grass beside me. “I think if I wipe it with a cloth and oil it up some, it’ll be as good as new. You might want to check the pictures inside. There are a few more in that saddlebag.” Another lift of his chin. “I had to roll them to make them fit, but they’re there.”

I stare at the battered satchel and touch the clasp, stunned. It’s dusty and spattered, but it’s here. I open the cover and check the contents, the thick white pages filled with the faces I can’t look at right now. I close it again, overwhelmed with dumbfounded gratitude.

“How?” I whisper. “How did you find them?”

“The scarred warrior—Wahatehwe—gave them back.”

“He gave them back?” I gasp, but John isn’t listening anymore. He’s dunked himself in the creek again and is scrubbing his hair and skin with the soap like he can’t bear to look at me either.

Someone calls out behind me in Shoshoni, and I turn to see the same scarred warrior walking toward the creek, leading five horses. The same five horses he offered Magwich in trade for me. My chest grows tight, and my stomach twists, but John stands, the water sluicing off his hair and his body, and greets the man. John introduces him—his name, Wahatehwe, is beautiful on John’s tongue—but I don’t look up. I ignore them both. The scarred warrior and I have already met, and I would rather forget him.

They converse for a moment, and I feel Wahatehwe’s eyes touching on me before he turns away, but he leaves the horses behind. They bow their heads beside the creek and drink, unconcerned with his departure.

“They are ours now,” John says quietly. “We’ll need some skins for a wickiup and some buffalo robes to sleep on if we’re going to winter here. We can trade the horses for whatever we need.”

My head is spinning. Winter here? A wickiup? And why are the horses ours? “I don’t want anything that belonged to Magwich,” I stammer.

“That’s what I told Wahatehwe, but he said it’s not a horse’s fault who his master is. Who his master . . . was.”

“Who his master was?” I ask, still reeling.

John doesn’t answer. He busies himself with Magwich’s horses, pretending not to hear. But I know him too well. “Why did . . . Wahatehwe . . . give you the horses, John?”

“I won them . . . in a race. Dakotah won them.”

“Dakotah?”

“The dun. That’s his name.”

“Since when?”

“Since he won your satchel and five horses from Wahatehwe,” John says quietly.

“And who put a slash across your belly and a gash on your cheek and a knife in . . . Dakotah?”

“Magwich.” John says the name like it tastes bad.

“And what did you do to Magwich?” I whisper. The hole in my chest fills with something black.

He is silent for a heartbeat, and then he raises his eyes to mine, solemn and dark. “I killed him, Naomi.”

I am caught in a deluge of relief and loathing, and I grit my teeth, close my eyes, and sink my hands into the grass so I’m not washed away.

“Naomi?” John murmurs.

“Yes?”

“I need you to look at me.”

“I will. I will, John. I just can’t . . . quite yet,” I say, keeping my eyes shut tight. I hear him walk toward me and crouch down beside me, but he doesn’t touch me. I can feel the cold coming