I am isolation,” Kya whispered with a slight edge. “I forgive Ma for leaving. But I don’t understand why she didn’t come back—why she abandoned me. You probably don’t remember, but after she walked away, you told me that a she-fox will sometimes leave her kits if she’s starving or under some other extreme stress. The kits die—as they probably would have anyway—but the vixen lives to breed again when conditions are better, when she can raise a new litter to maturity.
“I’ve read a lot about this since. In nature—out yonder where the crawdads sing—these ruthless-seeming behaviors actually increase the mother’s number of young over her lifetime, and thus her genes for abandoning offspring in times of stress are passed on to the next generation. And on and on. It happens in humans, too. Some behaviors that seem harsh to us now ensured the survival of early man in whatever swamp he was in at the time. Without them, we wouldn’t be here. We still store those instincts in our genes, and they express themselves when certain circumstances prevail. Some parts of us will always be what we were, what we had to be to survive—way back yonder.
“Maybe some primitive urge—some ancient genes, not appropriate anymore—drove Ma to leave us because of the stress, the horror and real danger of living with Pa. That doesn’t make it right; she should have chosen to stay. But knowing that these tendencies are in our biological blueprints might help one forgive even a failed mother. That may explain her leaving, but I still don’t see why she didn’t come back. Why she didn’t even write to me. She could’ve written letter after letter, year after year, until one finally got to me.”
“I guess some things can’t be explained, only forgiven or not. I don’t know the answer. Maybe there isn’t one. I’m sorry to bring you this bad news.”
“I’ve had no family, no news of family for most of my life. Now within a few minutes I’ve found a brother and lost my mother.”
“I’m so sorry, Kya.”
“Don’t be. Actually, I lost Ma years ago, and now you’re back, Jodie. I can’t tell you how much I wanted to see you again. This is one of the happiest and yet saddest days of my life.” She touched his arm with her fingers, and he already knew her enough to know this was rare.
They walked back into the shack, and he looked around at the new things, the freshly painted walls, the handcrafted kitchen cabinets.
“How’d you manage, Kya? Before your book, how’d you get money, food?”
“Oh, that’s a long boring story. Mostly I sold mussels, oysters, and smoked fish to Jumpin’.”
Jodie threw his head back and laughed out loud. “Jumpin’! I haven’t thought about him for years. Is he still around?”
Kya didn’t laugh. “Jumpin’ has been my best friend, for years my only friend. My only family unless you count herring gulls.”
Jodie turned serious. “Didn’t you have friends in school?”
“I only went to school one day in my life,” she chuckled. “The kids laughed at me, so I never went back. Spent weeks outsmarting the truant officers. Which, after all the things you’d taught me, wasn’t very hard.”
He looked astonished. “How did you learn to read? To write your book?”
“Actually, it was Tate Walker who taught me to read.”
“You ever see him anymore?”
“Now and then.” She stood, faced the stove. “More coffee?”
Jodie felt the lonely life hanging in her kitchen. It was there in the tiny supply of onions in the vegetable basket, the single plate drying in the rack, the cornbread wrapped carefully in a tea towel, the way an old widow might do it.
“I’ve had plenty, thanks. But what about a ride around the marsh?” he asked.
“Of course. You won’t believe it, I have a new motor but still use that same old boat.”
The sun had broken up the clouds and shone bright and warm for a winter day. As she steered them through narrow channels and glassy estuaries, he exclaimed at a remembered snag, the same as it had been, and a beaver lodge still piled in the exact spot. They laughed when they came to the lagoon where Ma, Kya, and their sisters had grounded the boat in mud.
Back at the shack, she put together a picnic, which they ate on the beach with the gulls.
“I was so young when they all left,” she said. “Tell me about the others.” So he told her stories of their older brother, Murph, who