hunkered under foliage. A common enough sight, except this frog was completely and brilliantly white.
Tate and Kya grinned at each other and watched until he disappeared in one silent, big-legged leap. Still, they were quiet as they backed away into the brush another five yards. Kya put her hands over her mouth and giggled. Bounced away from him in a girlish jig in a body not quite so girlish.
Tate watched her for a second, no longer thinking about frogs. He stepped toward her purposely. His expression stopped her in front of a broad oak. He took her shoulders and pushed her firmly against the tree. Holding her arms along her sides, he kissed her, his groin pushing against hers. Since Christmas they had kissed and explored slowly; not like this. He had always taken the lead but had watched her questioningly for signs to desist; not like now.
He pulled away, the deep golden-brown layers of his eyes boring into hers. Slowly he unbuttoned her shirt and pulled it off, exposing her breasts. He took his time to examine them with his eyes and fingers, circling her nipples. Then he unzipped her shorts and pulled them down, until they dropped to the ground. Almost naked for the first time in front of him, she panted and moved her hands to cover herself. Gently he moved her hands away and took his time looking at her body. Her groin throbbed as if all her blood had surged there. He stepped out of his shorts and, still staring at her, pushed his erection against her.
When she turned away in shyness, he lifted her chin and said, “Look at me. Look me in the eyes, Kya.”
“Tate, Tate.” She reached out, trying to kiss him, but he held her back, forcing only her eyes to take him in. She didn’t know raw nakedness could bring such want. He whispered his hands against her inner thighs, and instinctively she stepped each foot to the side slightly. His fingers moved between her legs and slowly massaged parts of her she never knew existed. She threw her head back and whimpered.
Abruptly, he pushed away from her and stepped back. “God, Kya, I’m sorry. I’m sorry.”
“Tate, please, I want to.”
“Not like this, Kya.”
“Why not? Why not like this?”
She reached for his shoulders and tried to pull him back to her.
“Why not?” she said again.
He picked up her clothes and dressed her. Not touching her where she wanted, where parts of her body still pounded. Then he lifted her and carried her to the creek bank. Put her down, and sat beside her.
“Kya, I want you more than anything. I want you forever. But you’re too young. You’re only fifteen.”
“So what? You’re only four years older. It’s not like you’re suddenly mister know-it-all adult.”
“Yes, but I can’t get pregnant. And I can’t be damaged as easily by this. I won’t do it, Kya, because I love you.” Love. There was nothing about the word she understood.
“You still think I’m a little girl,” she whined.
“Kya, you’re sounding more and more like a little girl every second.” But he smiled as he said it, and pulled her closer.
“When, then, if not now? When can we?”
“Just not yet.”
They were quiet for a moment, and then she asked, “How did you know what to do?” Head down, shy again.
“The same way you did.”
* * *
• • •
ONE AFTERNOON IN MAY as they walked from the lagoon, he said, “You know, I’m going away soon. To college.”
He had spoken of going to Chapel Hill, but Kya had pushed it from her mind, knowing at least they had summer.
“When? Not now.”
“Not long. A few weeks.”
“But why? I thought college started in the fall.”
“I got accepted for a job in a biology lab on campus. I can’t pass that up. So I’m starting summer quarter.”
Of all the people who left her, only Jodie had said good-bye. Everyone else had walked away forever, but this didn’t feel any better. Her chest burned.
“I’ll come back as much as I can. It’s not that far, really. Less than a day by bus.”
She sat quiet. Finally she said, “Why do you have to go, Tate? Why can’t you stay here, shrimp like your dad?”
“Kya, you know why. I just can’t do that. I want to study the marsh, be a research biologist.” They had reached the beach and sat on the sand.
“Then what? There’re no jobs like that here. You’ll never come home again.”