who looks like muscle. Every joint like this place, they always got guys look like you. Only, this time, I had the sleeve ace, not them. I know you don’t have a power arm, Sugar. Lefty, righty, makes no difference to you.”
“I guess not. But I still don’t see why—”
Buddha put ten C-notes on the table between us. “Your cut,” he told me. “I got the three-to-one, on a grand. The money guy, he saw me take the cash out of my shirt pocket, figured me for a degenerate gambler. You know, the kind who bets on any fucking thing, because they gotta have action going all the time.”
“Huh!”
“He’ll make it back by the end of the week. You didn’t hurt his boy.”
“How could I hurt a guy doing … that?”
“If he resisted, you could. But that’s not the way he’s got his man trained. He takes one real blast. If he can move the other guy, he reloads and fires again, until he breaks through. But if he can’t move the first time, he won’t fight too hard when the other guy comes back against him. He knows he could get his arm broken that way.”
I put the thousand in my jacket. “What if I had lost?” I said.
“I would have taken the moneyman off to the side and asked him if he wanted me to cut the cast off his guy’s hand. In front of everyone.”
“That’d get him—”
“Sure would. But all he has to do is pay off my bet. He does that and he gets to walk out of here with all the other money he just banked. It’s the perfect play, see?”
“Perfect for you.”
“You just got your cut, didn’t you?”
Buddha never even smiled. For him, it was business.
I started to think about how that was a side of him people didn’t know. It was like he had some of Ken’s guts, and some of Solly’s brains. He didn’t just know the rules, he knew how to make them work for him.
Lucky for me, I was only a couple of blocks from the apartment by then.
I wanted to be tired, not sleepy. So I lifted for an hour or so. Drank lots of Gatorade. Took a steamy shower.
Then I sat back and closed my eyes.
Buddha having a side hustle didn’t mean he wasn’t still Buddha. Anybody seeing him work that hustle wouldn’t think, Buddha, he’s not the same man he was. They wouldn’t worry about him not waiting with the motor running, no matter how nasty things got on a job.
But what if anyone heard of me offering to give someone up? If it was some guy who knew me, I wouldn’t be me anymore. Not to him, not to the other guys he’d tell. Not even to myself.
Like those prison choices.
I didn’t know the rules for someone like the guy who owned that jewelry store. He wasn’t one of us. So maybe I didn’t owe him anything. But I didn’t know.
Who could I ask? Solly, he’d know. But then he’d also know what I’d been ready to do. And Solly was the only one that store owner could roll on—he didn’t know any of the men who’d actually pulled off the job.
Christ! How fucked in the head could I be? I met Woods thinking I could give up the jewelry-store guy without breaking the rules. But I didn’t know anything about that guy, only Solly did. And if I even brought it up, Solly’d have questions about me.
I started shaking. Not like I was scared, more like I had this terrible fever.
If that cop hadn’t turned me down …
When I woke up, I was on the bed, facedown. I must have … I don’t know. Maybe I blacked out when I got to the part about why the whole thing mattered so much. Sure, I did that scumbag’s time for him. But it wasn’t that much time, and I slid out from under a lot of worse things when I took the deal. Plus, I still had the money.
And the cop had warned me about that Order of Protection thing. I couldn’t go near that girl, even if I knew where she was. I didn’t even know her name—it wasn’t in the papers. And she hadn’t been in court when I was sentenced—like to make one of those statement things.
I stopped myself, because I knew where I was going. In my head, I mean. There’s things you don’t think about. Not if you want to keep