remember what it had been, except the sense of debt. Had their relationship been so unequal? Had he been given, in money, friendship, faith, so much more than he was worth?
Evelyn was talking to him, telling him some story of Venetian history, a doge who had risen to power in a spectacular way, over the ruin of his enemies.
He made an appropriate remark indicating his interest.
She laughed, knowing he had not heard.
But the feeling remained with him all evening, and would not be shaken, that he had owed something profound. The harder he tried to recapture it, the more elusive it was. And when he turned away to think of something else, it was there, touching everything.
The following day, as he drifted along a canal with Evelyn warm beside him, it still crowded his mind.
"Tell me about Zorah," he said abruptly, sitting upright as they moved out of a byway into another of the main canals. A barge with streamers rippling in the breeze moved across their bow, and they were obliged to wait. Their gondolier rested his weight, balancing with unconscious grace. He made it look as if it were quite natural to stand with the shifting boat beneath him, but Monk knew it must be difficult. He had nearly lost his own footing and pitched into the water more than once.
"Why are you so interested in Zorah?" Evelyn was equally blunt There was a sharp light in her eye.
Monk lied perfectly easily. "Because she is going to make an extremely unpleasant scene, but it might bring you back to London, and I shall like that, but not if she has the power to hurt you."
"She cannot hurt me," Evelyn said with conviction, smiling at him now. "But you are very charming to worry. People at home don't take her as seriously as you imagine, you know."
"Why not?" He was genuinely curious.
She shrugged, sliding a little closer to him. "Oh, she's always been outrageous. People with any sense will simply think she is trying to draw attention to herself again. She's probably had an affair die on her, and she wants to do something dramatic. She gets bored very easily, you know. And she hates to be ignored."
Thinking of Zorah as he had seen her, he could not readily imagine anyone ignoring her. He could understand finding her intimidating, or embarrassing, but never boring. But perhaps even eccentricity could become tedious in time, if it were contrived for effect rather than springing from genuine character. Was Zorah a poseur after all? He would be surprisingly disappointed if it should prove to be true.
"Do you think so?" he said skeptically, touching her hair, feeling its softness slide through his fingers.
"I have no doubt. Look across the lagoon, William. Do you see the Santa Maria Maggiore over there? Isn't that marvelous?" She pointed across the great stretch of blue-green tide to the distant marble of the domed church which seemed to be floating on the water's face.
He saw it with a sense of unreality. Only the breeze on his skin and the slight movement of the boat made him realize it was not a painted scene.
"Last time Zorah had an affair which went wrong, she shot him," Evelyn said casually.
He stiffened. "What?"
"Last time Zorah had an affair and the man left her, she shot him," Evelyn repeated, twisting around to look up at Monk with wide, pansy-brown eyes.
"And she got away with it?" Monk was incredulous.
"Oh, yes. It was all quite fair. Dueling is accepted in our country." She regarded his amazement with satisfaction. Then she started to laugh. "Of course, it is normally men who duel, and then with swords. I think Zorah chose a pistol deliberately. She used to be quite good with a sword, but she's getting slower as she gets older. And he was quite young, and very good."
"So she shot him!"
"Oh, not dead!" she said happily. "Just in the shoulder. It was all very silly. She was furious because he appeared at a ball and made much play with this other woman, who was very pretty and very young. It all degenerated into a quarrel a few days later. Zorah behaved appallingly, striding into his club wearing boots and smoking a cigar. She challenged him to a duel, and without looking a complete coward, he had to accept, which made him seem a fool when she won." She nestled a little closer to him. "He never really got over it. I'm afraid people laughed. And, of