He sighed. “No, I don’t think that.” There was a long pause. “All right.” The words were dragged from him. “But as soon as they’re back from their honeymoon, we’re telling them.”
“Agreed.” She felt a rush of relief which died as he reached across and dragged her laptop toward him.
“What’s this?”
Why, oh why, hadn’t she closed the browser? “I was finding out a bit about the family.”
He lifted his gaze from the laptop to her face. “You mean you’ve been torturing yourself.”
“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“You’re the same before every college social event. You panic about what you’re going to wear and what people will think of you.”
“That’s called being human.”
“You’re lovely, Maggie.” His voice was rough. “I wish you had more confidence.”
She was a soon-to-be-divorced mother of two grown children who didn’t particularly like the way her life was looking. She thought about the file, safely tucked away in the drawer.
What did she have to feel confident about?
And if he thought she was so lovely, why were they getting divorced?
He tapped the keys and brought up airline details.
“How are we going to transport all the Christmas gifts?” She picked up her coffee and sat down next to him. “I won’t be able to carry everything.”
“Take a few key things, and they can have the rest next time they’re here.”
“I always make them a stocking. And I can’t imagine a tree without all the decorations the girls made over the years. It’s tradition.”
“So pack them up and bring them.” He glanced up from the screen, seemed about to say something and then changed his mind. “We’ll pay for excess baggage if necessary.”
Excess baggage. He could have been describing her.
“I can’t pack our decorations. That would be ridiculous.” She watched, anxious, as he keyed in dates and checked prices. “Is the flight overbooked?”
“I’m sure you’d like it to be but no, there are two seats left on the early flight. Business class.” He dug into his pocket for his wallet.
“Nick, we can’t fly business class.”
“Why not? We deserve a treat.”
Flying? A treat? The reality of strapping herself into a seat on an airplane and waiting for takeoff loomed in her brain. Her heart started to pound. “It’s an extravagance.”
“I know you’re scared of flying, but if I don’t book this now you won’t be going to your daughter’s wedding.”
Maggie moaned and put her head on the table. “How did Christmas turn into this?”
“They give you free champagne in business. I’ll pour a bottle of that into you before we take off. You won’t feel a thing.”
Maggie lifted her head. “What did you say to Rosie?”
“Last night? I can’t recall. You know me. I’m not as good at bouncing awake as you are. It takes me a while to surface. I hope I said the right things.”
What were the right things? She wasn’t sure. Should she have issued a warning or said congratulations? “She’s so young.”
“We were young.”
She was tempted to say and look at how that turned out, but she stopped herself.
Even though it had ended, their marriage hadn’t been a disaster. Believing that would mean the entire previous thirty-five years had been a mistake, and it hadn’t been. They’d had many happy years which was, perhaps, why she felt so sad about everything. It was messy, but life was messy wasn’t it? Full of good and bad, ups and downs, triumph and disappointment.
Part of her felt that somehow, they should have been able to make this work.
“Your mother tried to stop us getting married. She was very disapproving. She thought I was too serious.”
“She’d never seen you after a bottle of sloe gin, and I’ve told you before that she never approved of any of the women I dated. She was afraid they’d take her little boy away.” He stretched out his legs. “Yours wasn’t much better.”
“They wanted me to marry someone with a regular job. They were suspicious of your trips to Egypt, and the fact that your hair fell over your collar. It all seems so long ago, I can barely remember it although it was stressful at the time.”
“We did what felt right for us. We didn’t listen to our parents and Rosie and Dan won’t listen to us either, so there’s no point in wondering whether we should say something. We made our own decision, and now we should leave our daughter to make hers.”
“That’s very mature and rational.” She topped up their mugs and sat down next to