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began to drift into the room where she still sat with Eric as he died, some of them quiet like generations past, others hot with the temper of dogs' eyes. The membrane porous, the order shuffled. How arrogant, how wrong, for man to believe his animal senses caught the spectrum whole. An adventure time was, if you calmed yourself to its receipt.
Chapter 10
On the last morning of leave from her job at Atlantic Securities, Evelyn Jones sat looking out across Lincoln Avenue from the window of her mother's apartment and saw cars beginning to fill the spaces alongside the Second Baptist Church. A gray Cadillac, rented for the occasion, came to a halt at the curb and Evelyn's aunt Verna stepped onto the sidewalk, her gloved hand floating up to make sure of her hat and veil. In her early sixties, she still had a slender, elegant figure, defiantly elegant in fact, a body she was supremely aware of and which she deployed in the world as a kind of standing rebuke to all those who had let themselves go. With her flat chest, almost concave stomach, and rounded upper back, she had the torso of a wasp, curved and rigid.
"Your sister's here," Evelyn said, turning back into the dimness of the apartment. Her mother sat on the couch in the old, black taffeta dress that she had worn on formal occasions as long as Evelyn could remember, its slight V-neck revealing the wrinkled flesh above her breasts. Her makeup had done an adequate job of concealing the bags under her eyes.
"You plan on being late to your son's funeral?" Evelyn asked.
Her mother's eyes scrunched closed and her head tilted up toward the ceiling. "You have no mercy," she said.
Evelyn crossed to the closet and gathered their coats.
"Are we going or not?"
As they walked up the avenue, her mother took Evelyn's arm and held it all the way to the doors of the church and then inside, down the aisle to the front pew, where Aunt Verna awaited them. The minister stepped around from the side of the casket to guide them to their place. When everyone had taken their seats again, he moved in front of the altar and welcomed everyone to the service.
As the slow, heavy rhythm of his opening prayer settled over them, Evelyn gazed at the enlarged photograph of her brother propped on the easel beside the shiny white coffin in a garland of iris and lily of the valley: Carson in his red cape and mortarboard set against the standard sky-blue background of the high-school graduation portrait, his slender face nearly lost amidst the utter conventionality of the image, the generic promise of a bright future for the picture's captive. It was all Evelyn had been able to find in the shambles of her mother's place. Ten years old at the least. She regretted now that she had bothered. It seemed dishonest, this picture. Her brother hadn't died in some media-friendly accident - a bus of young people headed to a sporting event or a man trying to save a neighbor in a flood. He'd been shot in the middle of the afternoon in an apartment entryway and left to die.
The minister, who had known Carson but slightly, offered a brief eulogy employing the biographical facts with which Evelyn had furnished him. And then, as arranged, it was Aunt Verna who rose to speak.
"My nephew Carson Jones is dead," she began, her hands held together at her chest, as though she were lecturing to a group of Sunday-school children. "Some wretched sinner killed him. People always say a part of you dies along with a loved one. They are wrong about that. Part of you doesn't die. That would be easy. Remove the limb and go on your way. But that isn't how love is. When a person you love dies they haunt you - no offense to the rites of burial and I'm sure Carson's soul is up there with the angels - but the fact is their death haunts you, the waste and idiocy of it, the loving soul of that boy, the love he bore his family ... that love surely does haunt you. As well it should if you're going to walk the streets of this world with your God-given eyes open. I know I'm supposed to be up here saying something uplifting, but let's not deceive ourselves. The world is a hungry place and it swallowed my nephew without