push a smile onto my lips. “Well, luckily for you, I like freaks too.”
His lips tip up into a sexy grin. “Then, it’s a good thing we met each other.”
And it is. For sure.
If only I could get my pesky heart to stop getting ideas around him … then everything would be perfect.
For the next seven days, of course.
nineteen
Dillon
The sky is bright blue and clear, and the sun is shining down. I’m snuggled up on a hammock with West, who is currently asleep.
We did some morning yoga and then went for breakfast. After, we took a walk around the island, and we ended up here at the hammock, which is set out on a stretch of sand that runs through a lagoon. It’s really peaceful and private.
West nodded off about twenty minutes ago, and I’ve just been lying here, listening to the waves of the ocean. The steady beat of his heart beneath my ear. Wishing I could stay here forever. With him.
Yeah, I know. I’m dumb.
I have feelings for him. But it’s just a crush though. Nothing major.
But it’s still stupid of me to even have a crush on him because I knew from the start what this was with us. A fling. A two-week stand. Nothing more. I won’t see him after we leave here. And I was on board with that. Totally. Because I’m not in the right headspace to even be thinking of another relationship. I’m still working through the debris from the explosion of my last relationship.
And it’s not even what he wants. West has given me no signals that he sees me as anything more than his fuck buddy that he’ll say good-bye to at the end of his holiday.
Therefore, I have to keep this little crush of mine to myself. I want to keep having sex with him. I want to spend the rest of my time here with him.
I just need to push down any little happy, wandering thoughts that I might have of West and me sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G. First comes love. Then comes marriage. Then comes the baby in a baby carriage.
Yeah. None of that.
Act like I don’t have a crush on him. Keep on enjoying the sex and the time I have with him.
Then mourn my crush once I get back home.
God. Home.
I really do not want to go home. I know my city is fairly big. Maybe more medium-sized. So, it’s not like I have to ever see Tim or my mum again.
But it can also be a really small place. And I just know that Sod’s Law will guarantee that I bump into either one or both of them.
I’m so far from ready for that.
Maybe I’ll just stay here on the island. I could move here permanently.
And do what?
I could write. And earn not enough to even pay for a tent on the beach.
Yeah, that’s not gonna happen.
A crab skitters past, catching my attention, and I see it has the number ten written on its shell. I chuckle quietly to myself. Must be one of the crabs from the race the other day. Still walking around in its little numbered shell. Wonder where my number fourteen losing crab is. Probably off napping somewhere.
I tip my head back and look at West. He looks totally peaceful. Man, he’s just so damn pretty. And why am I just only now noticing how long his lashes are? I have to pay for extensions if I want to look like that.
But seriously, how did I get so lucky to land a guy like him to have a fling with?
I mean, I know I’m not hideous. But he’s out of my league. He’s out of most people’s leagues, to be honest, except for maybe Bella Hadid. She is beautiful.
And here’s little old me, getting to do lots of dirty things to him and with him.
I’m taking this as my cosmic payment for having such a shitty mother. Two weeks in paradise, being screwed into oblivion by West.
Well, I’ve definitely earned it.
This is getting a little boring though. Not the staring at him. No, I could do that all day. I just mean, lying here while he sleeps and I’ve nothing to do. I don’t even have my phone with me. I left it back at the villa. No pockets on my bikini to put it in.
Someone needs to invent that. A phone pocket on a bikini.
Maybe I will, and it’ll sell millions. Then, I can stop working crap jobs to