Torn (Torn Series) Page 0,89

Have you been talking to her?”

I scooted across the bed a bit to get away from him. “No, I haven’t spoken with her since that day I called you. Drake got on the phone with her then and I think we scared her off for a while but she’s back with a vengeance.”

His body went stiff at the mention of Drake.

“And I never told you because it’s only been happening for the last week or so and we haven’t exactly been on speaking terms. I couldn’t just run to you about it like I did before.”

He took a deep breath before turning to look at me, “Chloe you can always come to me about this stuff, no matter what’s happening between us. Just because things ended the way they did between us doesn’t mean that I don’t care about you anymore. You’re still my best friend and always will be. That’s actually what I came here tonight to talk to you about. I miss you Chloe, I know that there’s nothing left between us romantically, but I don’t want to lose you completely. You’ve always been such a big part of my life. These past few weeks have been hell without you.”

Tears broke free from my eyes and started rolling down my cheeks as he spoke. I threw myself into his arms and hugged him as tightly as I could manage. “Oh Logan! I’ve missed you so much, you have no idea. I was so sure you’d never speak to me again after everything. I thought I’d lost you!”

I sobbed into his chest as he rubbed my back. “I told you I just needed time Chloe, I could never leave you for long. You’re too important to me for that. I’ve felt like I’ve had a hole in my chest.”

I pulled back to look at his beautiful face, “I have too. The world’s not the same without you in it.”

We sat together on my bed for hours, just talking. I told him everything that had happened from the beginning and he listened quietly as I spilled every regret, every loss, every happy moment. When I finished we were both shaken and tearful.

“I wish you would have told me everything from the beginning Chloe. Things could have been so much different for all of us.”

I nodded as I wiped my tears away, “I know that now, but I figured that out too late, I was too deep in with you and I didn’t want to hurt you.”

“I know you didn’t baby girl, but you did. What’s in the past is exactly where it needs to be – behind us. From today on we’ll start over, no more looking back at our mistakes, only to the future. I’m not about to lose you again.”

I hugged him tightly as a smile spread across my face. “I’m not going to let you go again either. Logan and Chloe, partners in crime until the end.”

Things began to return to normal in the days following my talk with Logan. Amber had burst into my room the next morning, sobbing like a baby. I had held her in my arms for a full five minutes until she could make a coherent sentence.

“I… I missed you so damn much Chloe! This has been killing me inside.”

I hugged her tightly as I laughed, “I missed you too Amber, but I got what I deserved. What I did was wrong and I needed to pay for it.”

“I’m sorry I was such a bitch to you. I was so mad at you for what you did, and for not telling me. I had to find out from Adam after the fact. I thought you trusted me more than that!”

“I did trust you, I just couldn’t put you in the middle of all this. Logan is your friend too and if I had told you, it would have torn you guys apart. I didn’t want to do that to you.”

She nodded as she wiped under her eyes to get rid of the smudged mascara, “I guess I understand why, but it doesn’t make me feel any better about the whole thing.”

I stood up and looked out my window at the campus below. “I know it’s a crappy excuse, but it’s all I’ve got. I was so confused and I made some really bad choices. But I paid for it in the end. I nearly lost Logan and I did lose Drake.”

“Have you talked to him any since all of this happened? I’ve