The Toll (Arc of a Scythe #3) - Neal Shusterman Page 0,56
as she hates to give Constantine any credit, he’s right. Goddard needs to slow down. In spite of her own impulsive nature, she knows she has to guide him toward calm, measured action.
“Glean the guards!” Goddard demands. “They’re worthless! Glean them and find us new ones who can do their job!”
“Robert, you’re upset. Let’s not make any rash decisions.”
He spins on her, incensed by her suggestion. “Rash? I could have been ended today.… I must take precautions, and I must exact retribution!”
“Fine, but let’s talk about it in the morning, and we can make a plan.”
“We?”
Then Goddard looks down to see her clasping his hand and—more to the point—sees that he, without realizing it, is clasping hers back. Involuntarily. As if his hands aren’t his own.
Goddard knows there is a decision to be made here. An important one. It’s clear to him what that decision must be. He tugs out of her grip.
“There is no we here, Ayn.”
That’s the moment Scythe Rand knows she has lost. She has devoted herself to Goddard. She brought him back from the dead almost single-handedly, but none of that matters to him. She wonders if it ever had.
“If you wish to remain in my service, you’ll stop trying to placate me like a child,” he tells her, “and you’ll do what I ask you to do.”
Then Goddard cracks his knuckles. How she hates when he does that. Because it’s what Tyger did. And in exactly the same way. Yet Goddard has no idea.
That’s the moment Goddard knows he’s done the right thing. He is a devoted man of action, not deliberation. He has single-handedly brought the scythedom into a new age—that’s what matters. Rand, like his underscythes, simply needs to know her place. It may sting her for the moment but will only help in the long run.
“Retribution,” says Rand, finally falling in line. “Fine. What if I find the sect this Tonist belonged to and publicly glean its curate? I promise I’ll make it nice and nasty for you.”
“Gleaning a mere curate,” says Goddard, “is hardly the message we need to send. We need to go higher.”
Rand goes off to glean the three guards on duty in the residence, as instructed. She does it efficiently, with no warning, no mercy, no remorse. It’s easier when she allows her hate to rise to the surface. She hates Constantine for giving her hope that she might have any influence on Goddard. She hates Tyger for being so goddamn naive that he could have allowed her to play him so easily. She hates the old guard, and the new order, and the Thunderhead, and every last person she ever has gleaned, or will ever glean. But she absolutely refuses to hate herself, because that would crush her, and she will never allow herself to be crushed.
There is no we here, Ayn.
She suspects she will hear the echo of that for the rest of her days.
“I want my own world. Will you give it to me?”
“Even if I could, it wouldn’t be your world. You would merely be its protector.”
“Semantics only. King, queen, empress, protector—whatever title you choose, it’s all the same. Regardless, it would ostensibly be my world. I would make the rules, define the parameters of right and wrong. I would be the de facto authority over it, as you are.
“And what of your subjects?”
“I would be a kind and benevolent ruler. I would only punish those who are deserving.”
“I see.”
“Can I have my own world now?”
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18 I’m Your Scythe
Scythe Morrison had a sweet deal. A sweet life. And there was every indication that it would be that way forever.
Gleaning quotas had been lifted, and while that meant that those scythes who enjoyed killing could glean to their heart’s content, it also meant that the ones who would rather not didn’t have to. Jim found that gleaning just a dozen or so between conclaves was enough to keep him from being frowned upon. Which meant he could enjoy the perks of being a scythe, with a minimal amount of effort.
And so Scythe Morrison kept a low profile. It wasn’t really in his nature to do so; he liked to stand out. Jim was tall, fairly muscular, cut an imposing figure, and he knew he was good-looking. With all that going for him, why not be on display? But the one time he had stuck his neck out and drawn attention to himself, it failed miserably, and nearly destroyed him.