but I want to see your face again, kiss you again, feel how it feels to move with you again.
“I know I should not” is his line; she likes it when he repeats her lines and when she repeats his.
He replies, Why’s that?
She knows he needs his ego stroked. She understands this man better than he understands himself.
It feels great with you, and I have feelings for you.
She wants to write, I love you so much. I would take care of your children as though they were my own.
He doesn’t reply and her phone battery is down to a painful sliver. She screeches the car into the parking lot of Advanced Auto Parts. Inside she buys a car charger that she can also play music through and even this is just for the next time they make love in her car.
She writes, Hoo ha! Got a charger.
She doesn’t hear back.
She writes, I love it when things work out like that! It’s a beautiful day here in Mooresville!
She doesn’t hear back.
She writes, I will just be your friend since that’s what you want. Gonna be hard for me though since I will probably always have feelings for you. Will that be okay with ya?
He writes, You headed home?
In Mooresville. Don’t need to be home till 4:30.
WTF you gonna do?
Hey there, Big Guy! Don’t be cussin at me!
The game is on now, she is back in it.
Sorry, Kid.
It’s okay, Big Guy. I was just teasing.
Why u callin me fat?
You’re not fat. You have a big cock and nice muscles, Mr. Hart haha.
What’s the haha for? A big joke?
Nope not a joke, I meant it. Do you have the time to look up some movie times for me?
She doesn’t hear back for some time but it’s okay, there is finally a ball rolling, she can feel the energy building. She can read him even through her fear. In a drugstore she texts him, Have you ever used KY Warming jelly?
He says, No, what would u use it for.
I can think of some things I would put it on and then lick off.
He says something about lakes and she says something about shrinkage and he says something about getting smaller and she says she can make it bigger and he asks, How’s that?
Wouldn’t you like to know!
For a few minutes she doesn’t hear back and she didn’t buy the car charger for nothing so she writes, Would you like to see in person?
It’s a terrific game. Every text is meant to draw him in. She plays each message with her whole life. She concentrates on being flawless, on not spooking him. There is a strategy to each letter. There is a strategy to punctuation. Her entire life depends on his responses. Her heart feels bright, burning, cherry-red. She knows, like a car salesman, that if she can just get him in front of her, she’ll be able to close.
She writes, I’m feelin creative right now and I just bought something to be creative with.
What?
You’ll have to see for yourself.
Give me a clue.
It’s something to rub on certain parts of you that I then would use my tongue to lick off. Now where do you want to meet Aidan?
Your mom’s house.
Haha in my old bed you naughty man?
Haha behind movie theater.
This is where they had their first date. The fact that he remembers! But enough, enough! She’s loving it but she doesn’t want the clock to tick into oblivion. She doesn’t have an unlimited amount of time. She never does.
I will meet you now at Five Points and follow you somewhere.
I don’t know anyplace to go, he writes.
I’m at Five Points, she writes a few minutes later.
She waits there, drawing sharp breaths, feeling the weight of her need pressing against her pelvis.
Finally, after what seems like forever, she sees his truck coming down the road. He sort of winks at her and gestures for her to follow him, and she is so pleased with herself because she made him work for it. He’d racked his brain and come up with a place. Her face lights up when she realizes that he’s taking her to his grandmother’s farmland between Five Points and the river, where he and his brothers hunt across hundreds of beautiful acres.
Through the fields and into the woods she follows his car. When he stops, so does she. She waits, watches his door open, his strong body get out. He approaches slowly and assuredly and gets into her car. Parts of her she