creak of a floorboard tore Gabriel from a troubled sleep.
Bolting upright, he listened to the dark. Seconds ticked by in silence, and just as he’d begun to wonder if the sound had been in his dreams, he alerted to movement on the stairs.
Leaping up, he pulled on his trousers, punched his fists into a shirt, and seized his pistol.
When Gabriel killed, he’d rather the death be silent. And wet. But he would take no chances with her life, when swift and lethal violence might be more efficient.
Pressing his ear to the door, he heard nothing on the other side, so he burst out and drew down one length of the hall, then the other.
All was silent and still.
He went to her room. Hesitated, and then remembered that hesitation got people killed.
Bursting in, he found her bedsheets rumpled.
And empty.
“Felicity?” He searched every dark corner of her room. In the wardrobe. Checked the windows, finding them locked.
The sound of a door echoed from downstairs.
He leapt into the hall and flew down the staircase in time to see the edges of light disappear from the back of the house. Spinning toward the hallway, he spied a tiny glow in the courtyard through the glass panes in the back entry. He reached the courtyard in seconds.
The glow had dimmed, now that it was contained within the glasshouse.
A lone lantern cast vague shadows of leaves and blooms on the cobbles, interrupted by the motions of a girl in a white nightgown.
Lowering his weapon, Gabriel looked up to see flashes of Felicity as she fluttered around the greenhouse like a trapped butterfly.
When he wrenched open the door, she whirled, eyes wide with a terror he’d never before seen, brandishing a trowel at him as if it were a rapier.
Relieved to find her alone, he stepped inside, the flagstones cool beneath his bare feet.
He pinpointed the moment she recognized him through eyes made opaque by whatever awful force held her in thrall. Breathing as if she’d run a league at full tilt, she dropped the sharp garden instrument and bent over, resting her palms on her knees.
Gabriel went to her, discarding his pistol on the orderly workbench behind her. “What’s wrong. What happened?”
“I can’t breathe. I can’t… I’m…” She shuddered and sank to her knees, trembling and sweating and gulping for air.
Catching her by the shoulders, he followed her down, supporting her weight. “Did you take something? Eat something? Are you ill?”
“No,” she gasped. “No. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I— I’m broken. Please leave me. It will pass.”
It will pass. She’d said that in the gardens.
His heart rate slowed several degrees as he realized she didn’t fight a seizure, an injury, or a toxin.
Only her own demons.
She’d told him she had episodes of terror, but he’d never imagined they could be so powerful as this.
She surged against him, burrowing into his chest like a kitten seeking warmth, and he could do nothing but curl his body around her, creating a shelter.
“You are safe. I have you.” He cupped her head to his chest with one hand, the other spanning her trembling spine. “Slow your breath.”
“I can’t,” she gasped. “My skin is on fire and my limbs are so cold. My throat will close, I feel it. Oh, God.”
“I won’t let that happen,” he soothed, watching the pulse jump in her neck like a caged hummingbird. “Just breathe with me.” He deliberately expanded his ribs, then contracted them, urging her to do the same.
At first, her inhales were wobbly. Hitching and much too fast, but she did as he bade her to do. She focused. And after several silent minutes, her breaths matched the rhythm of his with only a few hiccups.
The tremors in her limbs gentled and she melted against him in a boneless drape of exhaustion.
“There now,” he said. “Do you want to tell me what frightened you? Was it a nightmare?”
“I don’t think so. Sometimes I— I wake like this. I can’t stop it. It’s like a wave that drags me under and drowns me in dread.”
“Why did you come out here?”
Why didn’t you come to me?
“If I stay in the dark, it often won’t relent, or it will plague me well into the morning. Sometimes I can distract myself out here until it goes away. The chill of the air, the busy garden chores, splashing my hands and face with cold water, burying my nose in lavender. I can focus my mind on other things, and eventually it passes. But… this time it felt