OK, Jai would look at me like I was his last meal, sans makeup and looking like a hot mess, I’m pretty sure I would have punched me in the arm for lying. But here I was.
“I mean it, girl. Get them clothes off or I’ll take care of it. Hope you aren’t fond of those jeans because…”
My hand went to my waistband, as these were my faves, perfectly broken in and soft as suede. He could keep his he-man bullshit for less well-loved items.
“You first,” I said when he took a step towards me. “I’ve seen bits and pieces over the years. It's broad daylight now. Show me what you’ve got.”
I saw the flaw in my words as soon as they were blurted out. I wanted to see a naked Jai about as much as I wanted my next breath, but when I thought about what I’d just said, I realised the same would be true for me. With no gentle moonlight to hide a million flaws, I’d be putting every squishy bit, every inch of cellulite on display.
Jai’s head jerked up, his smile carnal as his hands went to his zipper. Fuck, if I had half his confidence… He slid his jeans down, revealing those muscular thighs as he kicked them clear, then his hand went to toy with the lump in his underwear.
“Your turn if you wanna see the rest,” he said, nodding to me.
Oh, right. I put my head down, feeling his eyes on me but unable to look at them as I pulled my shirt off, then flicked open my bra clasp, dropping them both on the floor. Mama Heller’s admonitions ran through my head, but not much was getting through. I unbuttoned my jeans, ready to jerk them down, when I felt a pair of hands on me. He tipped my chin up, kissing me slowly and sweetly as he took over, the jeans and my underwear peeling off my damn skin.
“Fuck, Shan…” he rumbled, looking down at the gap between us. “You’re so fucking perfect.” He turned me around, placing kisses on the back of my neck, tracing the length of my spine before his hands came to rest on my waist. “This…” He followed the line from my waist down my hips, his hands coming to cup my arse. “This is what’s been tempting me and tormenting me all these years. You kept running away from me, and every time, I’d have to watch this luscious peach go. I dunno if I wanna lay you down on the bed and kiss every inch, or just split you open and lick up all your juices.”
Damn…both sounded good right now.
“And what about you?”
I spun around in his arms, my eyes going down to the tight Lycra boxers he wore. His smirk went wide as his thumbs went to his waistband and then thrust down, showing me exactly why.
I’d seen plenty of big dicks on the screen of my phone. Every red-blooded girl has gotta give Pornhub a spin at one time or another, at least just to satisfy curiosity if nothing else. Janey had made up a drinking game when we were feeling mournfully lonely. Harvest Grove was small and the dateable population was tinier still, so we’d each challenge the other to see who could find the biggest porn dick. Whoever lost had to drink, and we often got seriously wasted on those nights. But seeing something of those proportions on a tiny screen versus big, throbbing, and ready to high five my cervix, tying me to Jai for the rest of my life, was a whole other thing.
“I cannot take that,” I said without thinking, taking a step backwards, but Jai wasn’t having that. He crowded into me, backing me up against the wall.
“You can, if you want to.” His voice was a low buzz in my ear, the voice of that little devil on your shoulder, tempting you to do exactly what you knew you shouldn’t. “I’d be willing to bet you’re aching to try.” His hand brushed over my stomach, sliding down. “Do you feel it? That spot inside you that no one’s been able to touch? I can. I’ll push your legs open and sink so deep into you, we’ll become one. My knot will swell against that place that aches, that loves my fingers pressing hard against it, and I’ll just keep shooting, filling you with my cum, stroking your clit so that you come and come and