Supernatural Villain (Supernatural Captivity #3) - Avery Song Page 0,112
confront and fix that because there's been no time to confront him about it. And I'm sure there won't be a time before the shit hits the fan and we go into a potential war the moment we're sworn in and reveal the truth."
The two of them just stared at me, and I gave up trying to hide my anxiety that was threatening to spill out like a tumbling waterfall. I let my hands run through my hair as I just let my thoughts right out.
"I'm just stressed about so much and can't stop thinking about all the bad things that can happen. I have this new responsibility of being a queen with no space to breathe. I need to train and explore my kingdom but also need to reconnect with my siblings. Plus, I feel the need to split myself up between my five lovers and the people of my kingdom who have to get to know me. And all that’s before my potential role upon the supernatural council, and the lingering worry for my mother and what she has to deal with in the fae lands by herself. I wish I could have a moment with my real father and just get a feel for him. Ugh. It's just too much. I feel beyond overwhelmed and it's only going to get worse and worse until things explode and I just can't fathom how this is going to work out."
I put my head in my hands and groaned in frustration.
"Everything is too much right now, and even though I've gotten some fresh air, I realize that seeing how amazing this kingdom really is with my own eyes makes me fear losing it all. That I won't be the strong individual I was meant to be. I've obviously gotten through many hurdles, but can I get through this one? Can I really beat all the odds against me and finish everything on this never ending list?"
Tristian reached out to rub my back. "Cass. Breathe for me."
I ended up doing that because I hadn't realized how close to a panic attack I was until I was on the verge of tears and trying to breathe.
"Babe," Dominick whispered and I moved my hands from my face to see he was on his knees at my feet, his hands on my lap as he looked up to me with worried eyes. "Why have you been keeping this all in?"
"I don't know?" I confessed. "I'm a queen. I can't complain and vomit out all my worries."
"Says who?" Tristian questioned.
"Society? Cartoons? Life?" I offered as my tears streamed down my face. "I feel ungrateful for complaining or even feeling this way. It's frustrating because one minute I can be overwhelmed with happiness and thankful that though things are stressful, I'm alive with those I cherish, and then the next minute I'm overcome with this suffocating feeling, like one wrong move and everything is going to fall to pieces. Then the following minute I'm happy again. The next, I'm frightened. It's just a constant cycle of emotions and I'm not sure how to deal with it. I feel like if I voice my concerns and feelings so often, I'll just sound like a record on repeat and I'll be judged. I...I just feel stuck."
Dominick reached out to wipe away my tears as Tristian continued to rub my back. "Cassandra," Tristian whispered. "It's okay to feel the way you're feeling. It's not something to be ashamed of, nor should you be holding all these feelings in. Bottling them up isn't going to help solve them."
"We're here for you in all avenues, Cassandra," Dominick reminded. "Not just for physical touch or sexual satisfaction. It's okay to feel overwhelmed emotionally and mentally. This is a lot and it's not like you've been given the time to truly recover in all areas of physical, emotional, and mental stability."
"But won't you grow tired of me venting? Crying? Being frustrated about silliness?"
"Your frustration with everything that's going on is understandable. You crying is a way to let out the stress that's piling up from our current situation and what lies ahead. You venting will help us remind you that you're not alone and you don't need to carry all the stress of the world on your shoulders alone," Tristian reasoned. "We love you, Cassandra. You don't need to be a superwoman every day of the week. You can have bad days. You can be exhausted. You can feel the way you're feeling.