It would kill you, wouldn’t it, to do something that would bring us pleasure.”
“I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about.”
“Such language. Such respect.”
“Dad, I don’t have time for this any more.”
“Yes, hide from me. You went tonight as Vincent’s guest to this lecture. And then you went off after with the man he most wanted to speak with. And you couldn’t even think of asking your brother?”
Dave took a careful breath. His reflexive anger giving way to the old sorrow. “Dad, please believe me—it didn’t happen that way. Marcus went with these people I know because he didn’t feel like talking to the academics like Vince. I just tagged along.”
“You just tagged along,” his father mimicked in his heavy Ukrainian accent. “You are a liar. Your jealousy is so much that you—”
Dave hung up. And unplugged the telephone. With a fierce and bitter pain he stared at it, watching how, over and over again, it didn’t ring.
They said good-night to the girls and watched Martyniuk stalk off into the darkness.
“Coffee time, amigo,” Kevin Laine said brightly. “Much to talk about we have, yes?”
Paul hesitated, and in the moment of that hesitation Kevin’s mood shattered like glass.
“Not tonight, I think. I’ve got some things to do, Kev.”
The hurt in Kevin Laine moved to the surface, threatened to break through. “Okay,” was all he said, though. “Good night. Maybe I’ll see you tomorrow.” And he turned abruptly and jogged across Bloor against the light to where he’d parked his car. He drove home, a little too fast, through the quiet streets.
It was after one o’clock when he pulled into the driveway, so he entered the house as silently as he could, sliding the bolt gently home.
“I am awake, Kevin. It is all right.”
“What are you doing up? It’s very late, Abba.” He used the Hebrew word for father, as he always did.
Sol Laine, in pajamas and robe at the kitchen table, raised a quizzical eyebrow as Kevin walked in. “I need permission from my son to stay up late?”
“Who else’s?” Kevin dropped into one of the other chairs.
“A good answer,” his father approved. “Would you like some tea?”
“Sounds good.”
“How was this talk?” Sol asked as he attended to the boiling kettle.
“Fine. Very good, actually. We had a drink with the speaker afterwards.” Kevin briefly considered telling his father about what had happened, but only briefly. Father and son had a long habit of protecting each other, and Kevin knew that this was something Sol would be unable to handle. He wished it were otherwise; it would have been good, he thought, a little bitterly, to have someone to talk to.
“Jennifer is well? And her friend?”
Kevin’s bitterness broke in a wave of love for the old man who’d raised him alone. Sol had never been able to reconcile his orthodoxy with his son’s relationship with Catholic Jennifer—and had resented himself for not being able to. So through their short time together, and after, Kevin’s father had treated Jen like a jewel of great worth.
“She’s fine. Says hello. Kim’s fine, too.”
“But Paul isn’t?”
Kevin blinked. “Oh, Abba, you’re too sharp for me. Why do you say that?”
“Because if he was, you would have gone out with him afterwards. The way you always used to. You would still be out. I would be drinking my tea alone, all alone.” The twinkle in his eyes belied the lugubrious sentiments.
Kevin laughed aloud, then stopped when he heard the bitter note creeping in.
“No, he’s not all right. But I seem to be the only one who questions it. I think I’m becoming a pain in the ass to him. I hate it.”
“Sometimes,” his father said, filling the glass cups in their Russian-style metal holders, “a friend has to be that.”
“No one else seems to think there’s anything wrong, though. They just talk about how it takes time.”
“It does take time, Kevin.” Kevin made an impatient gesture. “I know it does. I’m not that stupid. But I know him, too, I know him very well, and he’s… There’s something else here, and I don’t know what it is.”
His father didn’t speak for a moment. “How long is it now?” he asked, finally.
“Ten months,” Kevin replied flatly. “Last summer.”
“Ach!” Sol shook his heavy, still-handsome head. “Such a terrible thing.”
Kevin leaned forward. “Abba, he’s been closing himself off. To everyone. I don’t… I’m afraid for what might happen. And I can’t seem to get through.”
“Are you trying too hard?” Sol Laine asked gently.