speech that truly doesn’t take much acting at all if I let my real emotions come into play. And they do, because this fuck-up is the biggest fuck-up of his life, and JT knows my patience with him has been stretched thin over the past months with his poor choices and childish behavior.
I hold my hands up and take two steps back. “No way, JT. I am not bailing you out of this. I’m sure you can scrape up the money.”
JT leans forward on the couch and winces while his knuckles turn white due to the death grip he has on his glass. “Beck . . . I’m telling you. I don’t have it.”
“Then get it from somewhere else,” I snarl at him. “I’m not bailing your ass out. I’ve been telling you I’m sick of this shit, JT. You promised you were going on the straight and narrow and you lied to me.”
“There’s nowhere else for me to turn,” JT says, and I swear I see a shimmer of tears in his eyes. “And Beck . . . they’re not going to beat me up for the money. It’s either a pay or don’t type of situation.”
“Meaning?” I ask with a tinge of fear in my voice for my “friend,” whom I’m pissed as hell at but also appearing to still be worried about.
“They’ll kill me. If they don’t get their money, they’ll kill me. Plain and simple.”
“Goddamn,” I shout out at the room as I spin away from him. Do another dramatic scrub of my hands through my hair. Turn to face JT, shoot him an accusatory look, and growl at him, “You goddamn motherfucking idiot, JT.”
“I know,” he says as he rises from the couch gingerly. He takes a step toward me. “I know, and I know I promised you I’d get things under control. But I was so sure this bet would get me out of trouble, and then I was going to shape my shit up. I promise this was the last stupid thing I’ll do. I swear it.”
I round on JT with fury etched all over my face. “I’m so sick of your lies, JT. Sick of living with this shadow over our business. You’re a selfish asshole who cares for no one but yourself.”
“I know, I know,” he chants.
Taking in a deep breath, I lower my gaze and stare at the floor. I pretend to ponder his situation. I appear to be conflicted. Not once do I let go of the anger on my face so he never forgets that this is the most monumental fuckup he’s made in our business and personal relationship.
Letting the air out of my lungs slowly, I take a step toward him, lean my head closer, and in a very soft but deadly serious voice, I tell him, “I’ll give you the money—”
“Oh, man . . . thank you so much,” he cuts in, but I hold my hand up. His mouth snaps shut.
“I’ll give you the money, but it’s not a loan and it’s not a gift.”
“What do you mean?” he asks carefully, and I notice his hand holding the half-empty tumbler of bourbon is shaking.
“It means I’ll give you the four million, but consider it a buyout from The Sugar Bowl. I want you out. I’m done with you.”
JT’s skin pales and his eyes go wide in disbelief. “No,” he whispers.
“Yes,” I maintain through gritted teeth. “I want you out of my life, JT. You’re nothing but a cancer to me. The four million will save your hide and compensate you for your share of the business.”
“Like fuck it will,” he spits out, his face now coloring red. “It’s worth way more than that.”
“Yeah, on paper it is. But it seems to me there’s value in me giving you money that will help save you from getting killed. I’d say The Sugar Bowl in return for that is more than fair compensation for your life, right?”
“Beck . . . please . . . don’t kick me out,” he implores. “I don’t have anything else.”
“Not my fucking problem,” I say softly. “But I tell you what . . . because The Sugar Bowl is worth more, I’ll make it five million. Pay off your debt, and if you’re wise, that extra million will keep you in style until you can figure out your next great adventure. Just know it’s not going to be with me at your side.”
JT doesn’t respond, but just stares at me with wide,