see you have several fine pinks as well. I love the perfume of them, don't you?" She saw Victoria's answering smile. "A gentleman with an eyeglass was just explaining to me how they are propagated to cross one strain with another."
"Oh yes-Colonel Strother," Victoria said quickly, taking a step closer. "I'm afraid he does tend to elaborate on the subject rather."
"Just a little," Callandra conceded. "Still, it is a pleasant enough thing to discuss, and I daresay he meant it kindly."
"I had rather listen to Colonel Strother on pinks than Mrs. Warburton on immorality in garrison towns." Victoria smiled a little. "Or Mrs. Peabody on her health, or Mrs. Kilbride on the state of the cotton industry in the plantations of America, or Major Drissell on the Indian mutiny." Her enthusiasm grew with a sense of ease with Callandra. "We get the massacre at Amritsar every time he calls. I have even had it served up with fish at dinner, and again with the sorbet."
"Some people have very little sense of proportion," Callandra agreed with answering candor. "On their favorite subject, they tend to bolt like a horse with a bit between its teeth."
Victoria laughed; it seemed the analogy amused her.
"Excuse me." A nice-looking young man of perhaps twenty-one or twenty-two came up apologetically, a small lace handkerchief in his hand. He looked at Victoria, almost ignoring Callandra and apparently not having seen Arthur at all. He held up the scrap of lawn and lace. "I think you may have dropped this, ma'am. Excuse my familiarity in returning it." He smiled. "But it gives me the opportunity of presenting myself. My name is Robert Oliver."
Victoria's cheeks paled, then flushed deep red. A dozen emotions chased themselves across her face: pleasure, a wild hope, and then the bitterness of memory and realization.
"Thank you," she said in a small tight voice. "But I regret, it is not mine. It must belong to some other-some other lady."
He stared at her, searching her eyes to see whether it was really the dismissal it sounded.
Callandra longed to intervene, but she knew she would only be prolonging the pain. Robert Oliver had been drawn to something in Victoria's face, an intelligence, an imagination, a vulnerability. Perhaps he even glimpsed what she would have been. He could not know the wound to the body which meant she could never give him what he would so naturally seek.
Without willing it, Callandra found herself speaking.
"How considerate of you, Mr. Oliver. I am sure Miss Stanhope is obliged, but so will be the handkerchief's true owner, I have no doubt" She was also quite convinced that Robert Oliver had no intention of seeking anyone further. He had found the scrap of fabric and used it as an excuse, a gracious and simple one. It had no further purpose.
He looked at her fully for the first time, trying to judge who she was and how much her view mattered. He caught something of the grief in her, and knew it was real, although of course he could not know the cause of it. His thin, earnest young face was full of confusion.
Callandra felt a scalding hot anger well up in her. She hated the abortionist who had done this. It was a vile thing to make money out of other people's fear and distress. For an honest operation to go wrong was a common enough tragedy. This was not honest. God knew if the practitioner was even a doctor, let alone a surgeon.
Please-please God it had not been Kristian. The thought was so dreadful it was like a blow to the stomach, driving the breath out of her.
Did she want to know, if it had been? Would she not rather cling to what she had, the gentleness, the laughter, even the pain of not being able to touch, of knowing she never could have more than this? But could she live with not knowing? Would not the sick, crawling fear inside her mar everything, guilty or not?
Robert Oliver was still staring at her.
She forced herself to smile at him, although she felt it was a hideous travesty of pleasure.
"Miss Stanhope and I were just about to take a little refreshment, and she was to show me some flowers her gardener has propagated. I am sure you will excuse us?" Gently she took Victoria by the arm, and after only a moment's hesitation, Victoria came with her, her face pale, her lip trembling. They walked in silence, close to each other. Victoria