friend arrange to get us course information for such a rendezvous? We're navigators, but only on the sea."
"Jane will have the revised navigational information in your ship's computer when you leave."
"Ender - for you it'll be thirty years, but for me - I'll see you in only a few weeks." She started to cry.
"Maybe I'll come with Miro to meet you."
"Don't!" she said. "I want you to be as old and crabbed as possible when I arrive. I couldn't put up with you as the thirty-year-old brat I see on my terininal."
"Thirty-five."
"You'll be there when I arrive!" she demanded.
"I will," he said. "And Miro, the boy I'm sending to you. Think of him as my son."
She nodded gravely. "These are such dangerous times, Ender. I only wish we had Peter."
"I don't. If he were running our little rebellion, he'd end up Hegemon of all the Hundred Worlds. We just want them to leave us alone."
"It may not be possible to get the one without the other," said Val. "But we can quarrel about that later. Good-bye, my dear brother."
He didn't answer. Just looked at her and looked at her until she smiled wryly and switched off the connection.
* * *
Ender didn't have to ask Miro to go; Jane had already told him everything.
"Your sister is Demosthenes?" asked Miro. Ender was used to his slurred speech now. Or maybe his speech was clearing a little. It wasn't as hard to understand, anyway.
"We were a talented family," said Ender. "I hope you like her."
"I hope she likes me." Miro smiled, but he looked afraid.
"I told her," said Ender, "to think of you as my son."
Miro nodded. "I know," he said. And then, almost defiantly, "She showed me your conversation with her."
Ender felt cold inside.
Jane's voice came into his ear. "I should have asked you," she said. "But you know you would have said yes."
It wasn't the invasion of privacy that Ender minded. It was the fact that Jane was so very close to Miro. Get used to it, he told himself. He's the one she's looking out for now.
"We'll miss you," said Ender.
"Those who will miss me, miss me already," said Miro, "because they already think of me as dead."
"We need you alive," said Ender.
"When I come back, I'll still be only nineteen. And brain-damaged."
"You'll still be Miro, and brilliant, and trusted, and loved. You started this rebellion, Miro. The fence came down for you. Not for some great cause, but for you. Don't let us down."
Miro smiled, but Ender couldn't tell if the twist in his smile was because of his paralysis, or because it was a bitter, poisonous smile.
"Tell me something," said Miro.
"If I won't," said Ender, "she will."
"It isn't hard. I just want to know what it was that Pipo and Libo died for. What it was the piggies honored them for."
Ender understood better than Miro knew: He understood why the boy cared so much about the question. Miro had learned that he was really Libo's son only hours before he crossed the fence and lost his future. Pipo, then Libo, then Miro; father, son, grandson; the three xenologers who had lost their futures for the piggies' sake. Miro hoped that in understanding why his forebears died, he might make more sense of his own sacrifice.
The trouble was that the truth might well leave Miro feeling that none of the sacrifices meant anything at all. So Ender answered with a question. "Don't you already know why?"
Miro spoke slowly and carefully, so that Ender could understand his slurred speech. "I know that the piggies thought they were doing them an honor. I know that Mandachuva and Leaf-eater could have died in their places. With Libo, I even know the occasion. It was when the first amaranth harvest came, and there was plenty of food. They were rewarding him for that. Except why not earlier? Why not when we taught them to use merdona root? Why not when we taught them to make pots, or shoot arrows?"
"The truth?" said Ender.
Miro knew from Ender's tone that the truth would not be easy. "Yes," he said.
"Neither Pipo nor Libo really deserved the honor. It wasn't the amaranth that the wives were rewarding. It was the fact that Leaf-eater had persuaded them to let a whole generation of infants be conceived and born even though there wasn't enough food for them to eat once they left the mothertree. It was a terrible risk to take, and if he had been wrong, that