haven’t really had any chance to be, well, wooed. If wooing is what Cam and Asher have been doing.
The jury’s still out on Dmitri. I don’t think the guy even knows what he wants, much less how to express that to anyone else.
Cam looks at Asher, who runs a hand through his hair. Somehow, in their wordless exchange, I’m pretty sure Asher just got nominated to explain this to me. My suspicion is confirmed when he squares his lean, muscled shoulders, turning to face me.
“We’re—if you’re interested, yes, we want to date you. We talked about it, and we’re not the types to get jealous or… well, we’re close, let’s put it that way. And if you just choose one of us, or none of us, that’s totally fine. But if you ever want something more… we’re not going to compete over you. Not even with Roman.” He chuckles softly. “As if any of us could.”
Cam nods in agreement, but Dmitri doesn’t say anything.
I jerk my thumb toward him. “Is he on board?”
Asher shoots Dmitri a look. “Well…”
“We thought he was.” Cam rolls his eyes, shaking his head at his surly roommate. “Come on, Dima! You couldn’t stop talking about Sin the day we met her! And after your first sparring session with her? We heard about that for days!”
My eyebrows fly up. What?
I honestly have a hard time imagining Dmitri talking nonstop about anything, least of all me. And he certainly can’t seem to muster up a single word at the moment. He’s still leaning over the back of his chair, his head turned away, but I think I see his dark gaze flick toward me from beneath his long eyelashes.
“He was there when we made the agreement not to fight over you,” Asher adds. “And he agreed too.”
“Anyway, we’re definitely on board.” Cam grins, gesturing between himself and the green-eyed mage.
My knees feel a little jelly-like, and I surreptitiously put a hand on the door to steady myself. I have to admit, this is pretty overwhelming. Knowing that two—possibly three, if Dmitri ever pulls that stick out of his ass—guys want to date me, that they’re willing to share, even…
It terrifies me and thrills me, the idea that these men care so much.
I can’t let them get too close to me though. Someone’s killing students, for fuck’s sake; nobody’s safe around here. And I can’t risk falling for people that I might find being brought out on a stretcher the next morning.
I know it’s dumb, and I know it makes me a coward, but I just don’t know if I can do it. I keep my exterior so hard and prickly because on the inside, I’m literally nothing but mush.
But at the same time… I want them. I crave them. And I feel happy and safe with them.
What the hell am I supposed to do?
“It’s late,” Asher says, probably reading the conflict raging across my face. “We should all get some rest. We can talk more about this another time if we want.”
That’s a brilliant idea. Nobody’s rational at two in the morning.
Cam nods, some of his usual pep returning. “Good plan. I don’t know about you guys, but I could use some fucking beauty rest. I’ll need it if I’m ever gonna win over Sin here.” He winks at me before his face grows serious. “Plus, I’m sure tomorrow’s gonna be insane.”
He’s right. I wonder if we’ll even have classes. Would they shut down the whole school over something like this?
It’s a little awkward as we all get into our beds. A million thoughts are bouncing around in my head, mirroring the emotions bouncing around in my heart. I’m glad the unspoken attraction between us all is out in the open now, but I have no idea what I’m going to do about it. I don’t want to hurt the guys, and I don’t want to risk our friendship. It means a lot to me, even though I never thought I’d make real friends here—or maybe because of that.
But what they’re suggesting, what they’re offering? It sounds kind of incredible. Part of the reason I never made a move on any of them is because I didn’t think I could choose between them.
Now they’re telling me I might not have to.
I need to think about this. I need to figure out what I want, and whether I can really handle any of this.
Between my encounter with Roman, the discovery of Trevor’s body, and now this conversation with