The Silver Linings Playbook - By Matthew Quick Page 0,44
bitching at me for once?"
"We're on a budget. We agreed - "
"Oh. Okay. We're on a budget."
"We agreed that - "
"We have money to feed Pat. We have money to buy Pat a new wardrobe. We have money to buy Pat a home gym. We have money for Pat's medications. Well then, the way I see it, we have money for a new fucking television set too."
I hear my mother's footsteps exit the family room. Just before my father turns up the game again, I hear her stomp up the steps to her bedroom, where I know she will cry because my father has cursed at her again.
And it's my fault their money is stretched.
I feel awful.
I do sit-ups on the Stomach Master 6000 until it is time to run with Tiffany.
When I finally go upstairs, I see that Dad's television set is one of those new flat-screen models they advertised when we watched the Eagles play Houston, and it is literally almost the size of our dining-room table. It's huge; only the center third rests on the end table, making it look as if it is balanced very carefully, as if the whole thing might topple when the heater vents begin to blow later this fall. Even still, while I do feel bad about Mom, I have to admit that the picture quality is excellent and the speakers set up on stands behind the couch fill the house with sound, making it seem as though the college football game is being played in our family room - and I start to look forward to watching the Eagles on the new set, thinking the players will almost appear life-size.
I stand behind the couch for a second, admiring my father's new television, hoping he will acknowledge my presence. I even say, "Dad, did you get a new television?"
But he doesn't answer me.
He is mad at my mom for questioning his purchase, so now he will sulk. He will not talk to anyone for the rest of the day, I know from experience, so I leave the house and find Tiffany jogging up and down the street.
Tiffany and I run together, but we do not talk.
When I return home, Tiffany keeps jogging without even saying goodbye, and as I jog up the driveway to the back door, Mother's car is gone.
Chapter 23
The "Pat" Box
By 11:00 p.m. my mother has not returned home, and I start to worry because every night at 10:45 p.m. I'm supposed to take pills that help me sleep. It isn't like Mom to foul up my medication schedule.
I knock on my parents' bedroom door. When no one answers, I push the door open. My father is sleeping with the small bedroom television on. The blue glow makes his skin look alien - he sort of looks like a big fish in a lit aquarium, only without gills, scales, and fins. I walk over to my dad and shake his shoulder lightly. "Dad?" I shake him a little harder. "Dad?"
"Whaddya want?" he says without opening his eyes. He is lying on his side, and the left side of his mouth is smashed into the pillow.
"Mom's not home yet. I'm worried."
He doesn't say anything.
"Where is she?"
Still, he does not say anything.
"I'm worried about Mom. Do you think we should call the police?"
I wait for a reply, but only hear my father snoring softly.
After turning off the television, I leave my parents' bedroom and go downstairs to the kitchen.
I tell myself if Dad isn't worried, I shouldn't be either. But I know it isn't like Mom to leave me alone without telling me where she will be, especially without talking to me about my medications.
I open the kitchen cabinet and take out the eight bottles of pills that all have my name printed on the labels. So many long, depressing drug names are on the labels as well, but I only know the pills by their colors, so I open all the lids and look for what I need.
Two white-and-reds for sleeping, and also a green one with a yellow stripe, but I do not know what the green one with a yellow stripe does. Maybe antianxiety? I take all three pills because I want to sleep, and also, I know that is what Mom would want me to do. Maybe Mom is testing me. Since my father talked down to her earlier today, I really want to please Mom even more than on regular days, although I am not sure