promise to Jak was the only thing that tethered him to the humanity of his past.
“I am not a hero. It’s not in me, Jak.”
There were other things in him, darker things, things that good deeds could not efface, things that graveside confessions could not expiate. The shadowstuff was not merely part of him; it was consuming him. He saw in Rivalen Tanthul his own future—thousands of years lived in darkness.
“I’m tired,” he said, and meant it.
Around him the shadows took on weight, substance, presence. The hairs on the back of his neck rose and he felt only mild surprise when the darkness whispered in his ear with the mocking voice of his god.
“Tired? Already? But things have only just gotten started. Try running for thousands of years. Then speak to me of tired.”
Cale did not turn, did not rise, refused to bow. His heart raced but he stared at Jak’s grave and kept a tremor from his voice.
“You are not welcome here, not now.”
“Why? Because you are communing with your dead friend instead of your god?”
“Yes. You are unwelcome.”
“So you said, but you called me. I heard you.”
Perhaps Cale had. He did not know anymore. Perhaps his soul whispered to the darkness in a voice the rest of him could not hear.
“Since when do you answer my call? You are a liar.”
Mask chuckled. “Quite so.” The god’s tone changed, took a threatening cast. “And speaking of liars. You have been a naughty priest, talking with archfiends.”
Cale’s breath caught. His heart lurched. The darkness around him roiled.
“You thought I did not know? Tut, tut. I see clearly into darkness and there’s no darker place than your soul.”
The words mirrored Cale’s own thoughts, but he summoned what defiance he could. “Then you know what I promised him and what that means for my promise to you.”
The shadows darkened, tightened around him, their embrace a restraint rather than an embrace. Mask spoke with a voice as hard and sharp as a vorpal blade.
“Those promises are yours to keep, priest. I will hold you to your word.”
Cale managed a half turn of his head, but saw only shadow, darkness. “You are a bastard.”
“Yes”
“I hate you.”
Mask chuckled. “It is not me that you hate. I understand your true feelings all too well.”
Cale refused to follow the words where they led. Irritation made him rash. “Do you still have that hole I put in your armor? Show yourself and I’ll give you another.”
Mask’s chuckle faded. “I keep it as a souvenir of our meeting. Do you still have that hole I put in you?”
Cale tensed. “What do you mean?”
“You know what I mean.”
Cale did. The shadows were hollowing him out, turning him into a shell of a man.
“I’d do it again, too.”
“That’s why you’re a bastard.”
“Among other reasons,” Mask said. “Some men in your situation would be grateful to me. What I gave you allows you to save those you want to save, to harm those you want to harm. I made you more than a man.”
But I can’t save myself, Cale wanted to scream. His anger boiled over, exploded out of him in a burst of words and darkness.
“This,” he fought through the restraints and held out his arms as the shadows roiled around his flesh, “has not made me more than a man. It’s made me less.”
Mask said nothing for a moment, then, “You understand that much sooner than I did.”
The words startled Cale. He started to stand but the shadows solidified, held him still, a penitent before Jak’s grave.
“Who are you?” Cale asked. “What are you?”
Mask sighed. “I am what I am. Once a man, then a god, then a herald of something … awkward. But always a thief and a debtor. Same as you.”
Cale did not feel up to parsing the words of his god. “I am tired.”
“So you said.”
“You are, too, yes?”
Mask said nothing.
Cale continued, “Tell me what is happening.”
“The Shadowstorm is come. Our debts are coming due. You understand well about debts. You’re as Sembian as anyone actually born there.”
“What kind of debts? Who pays?”
Mask spoke softly. “Old ones. And we all pay. It is not for me to break the cycle. Perhaps another will, in another place, another time.”
“What do you mean?” Cale asked.
“You keep your promise to me, priest, or the Shadowstorm will swallow all of Sembia. So complain to your dead friend, then go to what used to be Ordulin.”
“Used to be?”
“See it through, priest. Things are almost at an end.”