the door. The cold air whipped at his face, clearing his head, and without thinking, going on pure impulse, he dialed her number.
One ring. Two. Three.
“Hello?”
“It’s me. No, don’t hang up!”
The silence spoke volumes. Her usual musical voice was flat. “What do you want?”
“I want Pinky back.”
The endless words he ached to tell her backed up in his throat until only that one sentence spilled out. Maybe she’d understand what he meant. Pinky was the symbol of everything he wanted but never thought he deserved.
“You want Pinky back. Why?”
“I made a big mistake, Arilyn. Huge. Colossal. I’m coming over to pick her up and talk to you.”
“You’re drunk, aren’t you?”
“No! No, just a bit—not really. I had a few beers. But I’m not drunk.”
A small sigh puffed over the phone. “I get it, Stone, I really do. But I can’t do this. You get drunk, you feel lonely, you think you can handle it. I’ve been here before. You miss Pinky’s company and the way she adored everything about you, with no concept of asking for anything back except your attention. Trust me, in the morning it’ll all come flooding back, and you’ll back away again. I lived this dance, and I’m done. I’m sorry. Maybe you were right after all, and we’re better off apart. Including Pinky.”
His heart now exploded and his body went into junkie-in-need-of-a-fix mode. Sweat poured from his skin, panic settled in his gut, and he couldn’t seem to catch his breath. “No, please listen to me; it’s different than you think. Just let me come over and explain it.”
“No! I won’t open the door, Stone. You need to go back to the bar and your friends and your life. You’ll thank me tomorrow.”
“But Pinky—”
“Pinky’s gone,” she whispered.
No. No, no, no, no. “What do you mean?”
“Anthony is sending her to another shelter to work with a behaviorist. He’s an expert in abused animals and thinks they can get her a family. I’m fostering three new dogs who come in a few days. It was the right decision.”
“You gave her away?”
An arctic blast exploded into the phone. “No. You gave her away, remember? Please don’t call me again.”
The phone clicked.
Stone stared at his cell phone. This couldn’t be happening. How had he experienced the biggest revelation of his life, yet she wasn’t ready to listen to him? Pinky wasn’t meant to be with another family or a behaviorist who didn’t understand she only liked hamburgers and slept on the right side and preferred peanut butter chewy bones.
Pinky was meant to be with him.
In the middle of a full-fledged panic attack, he closed his eyes and did the only thing possible before completely losing it.
He breathed.
In and out. Feeling the air seep and fill up his lungs with everything good and positive. Then release all the bad toxins and thoughts out into the universe. His body calmed. His mind cleared. And an odd peace settled over him, showing him the only road he had left to take.
ARILYN FINISHED HER MEDITATION and slowly opened her eyes. The screens were down since Lenny and Mike had left, but she’d need to erect them again when her new charges came later that day. She usually enjoyed the hushed quiet that filled the bungalow, but lately it beat with an undercurrent of loneliness she seemed unable to fight.
God, she missed Stone.
Anger hit her full force when she thought of his phone call. Stupid drunken musings. She was well versed in those from Jacob. Jacob, who’d have too many cocktails and get weepy. Who promised to change and begged her forgiveness, only to go back to exactly how things were. The crazy thing? She knew Stone loved her. Yet he’d not only walked away from her without a backward glance, but he’d also walked away from Pinky. The last week with the Chihuahua had been heartbreaking. She waited at the door for Stone to enter, a frozen statue who believed her master would reappear. Arilyn had taken her to Kate’s every day to spend time with Robert, who seemed to be the only one to calm her. With genuine love and affection, he’d nudge her with his giant nose, flop down, and allow her to crawl over on his back.
Kate had mentioned adopting her, but Arilyn believed the new behaviorist and a clean slate would give Pinky what she needed.
Trying to swallow past the tightness in her throat, she rolled to her feet, blew out her incense sticks, and strode to the kitchen.