Scars of Yesterday (Sons of Templar MC #8) - Anne Malcom Page 0,148
down. Only because I want to go on any adventure with you. But you don’t truly want one. And you’re torturing yourself thinking that is taking something away from me, when in reality, baby, you’ve already given me everything.”
So there it was.
Our soft ending.
For now, at least.
Sure there would be bumps in the road. There would be things that cut us further. Wounded us still. But for the most part, we were content. Happy. We had made peace with all the scars of all of our yesterdays. We had the beauty of today.
Acknowledgments
Ah, it’s so hard to write this.
For those of you who don’t know, I wrote this book when I was pregnant. I started around the exact same time I found out. I wrote this book in the middle of the chaos that came with finding out this beautiful news and making preparations to go home to New Zealand so I could have the baby there.
Not long after I sent this book to the editor, at three months pregnant, I lost the baby.
It was (and still is) the hardest time of my life. I’m still going through the pain and emotions that too many women know all too well. This loss has battered me. Scarred me. Having to go through edits for this book while I was still suffering cut me all over again.
Lizzie’s miscarriage at the beginning of the book was my way of acknowledging my own fears, thinking that if I wrote them into a book they wouldn’t happen to me. But it did happen to me. The pain and loss in these pages is my own.
It’s even more important to me now, even while still going through this, that I share this book. I share some of my story with you. Maybe I might make you feel less alone. I shared what happened to us with my readers on Facebook and I was overwhelmed with the strength and bravery of women willing to share their stories with me.
You made me feel so much less alone. You gave me so much hope. Thank you.
There are so many people all over the world who made this book possible. Who helped me feel strong enough to publish this.
Taylor. My soulmate. My best friend. My protector. You worked so very hard for us. For our daughter. You carried me through when I couldn’t hold myself up. Held me when I was falling apart. Showed me love when I felt alone. I am so lucky to have you by my side for the rest of my life.
Mum. It has been so very hard being a world away from you throughout all of this. But I am so lucky that you answer every single one of my calls, that you let me cry, let me talk, let me do whatever I need to do. I’m so lucky that you have supported all my dreams and helped me through this nightmare. I can’t wait to get home.
Dad. You’re not here, I’d like to think you’re somewhere with Ember, watching over me. I am the woman I am today because my dad taught me to never give up, to believe in myself and fight for what I want.
Jessica Gadziala. My #sisterqueen. My rock. You are such a wonderful person and talented author. You’ve been there for me throughout all of this and continue to be such an amazing human being. I’m so so lucky to have you as my friend.
Annette Brignac. You are always there for me. Always a message away, and I’ve needed that so much lately. You are steadfast friend, sister, superhero. Thank you for being there for me. And for being there for this book.
Michelle Clay. I’m so lucky that my books brought us together. That my family is bigger and more beautiful than ever because of our relationship. The light you bring into it. You are such an extraordinary woman, mother, wife and friend and I cannot wait to see how you kick ass in the future.
Amo Jones. My ride or die bitch. Soul sisters forever. I love you so so much, am in awe of your talent and your all around badassery. Forever.
Polly. You have been there for me so much during this horrific time, even though you’re on the other side of the world, I couldn’t have gotten through any of this without you.
Emma. My beautiful friend. I miss you so very much and I cannot wait until we’re reunited. Thank you for loving and supporting me across a world.
Harriet. I miss you so much, girlfriend. Especially now. Miss our shopping trips, spending too much money on food and wine and having adventures together. Love you so so much.
Kim. Thank you for doing such beautiful edits on this book and being a generally beautiful person.
And most importantly, you, the reader. Without you, this life of mine wouldn’t be possible. This life where I get to write stories for a living. Daydream about bikers, vampires, witches, rockstars and call it a job. You’ve made my dreams come true.
About the Author
ANNE MALCOM has been an avid reader since before she can remember, her mother responsible for her love of reading. It started with magical journeys into the world of Hogwarts and Middle Earth, then as she grew up her reading tastes grew with her. Her love of reading doesn’t discriminate, she reads across many genres, although classics like Little Women and Gone with the Wind will hold special places in her heart. She also can’t get enough romance, especially when some possessive alpha males throw their weight around.
One day, in a reading slump, Cade and Gwen’s story came to her and started taking up space in her head until she put their story into words. Now that she has started, it doesn’t look like she’s going to stop anytime soon, with many more characters demanding their story be told as well.
Raised in small town New Zealand, Anne had a truly special childhood, growing up in one of the most beautiful countries in the world. She has backpacked across Europe, ridden camels in the Sahara and eaten her way through Italy, loving every moment. She has settled down with her fiancé, their dogs and happy to be in one place…for a while at least.
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