The house was quiet once everyone but my little brother and Penny had scampered. Although there had been many offers to help Mum clean up, in the end I helped her shoo them out and I stayed behind to offer my services, despite the pile of marking waiting for me in my flat.
I was just putting away some newly washed and dried dishes when Mum said my name almost tentatively. Wary at her apprehensive tone, I turned around, my eyebrow raised in question.
She was fiddling a little nervously with a sponge she’d been using to wipe down the counters. “Your dad and I have something we need to ask you.”
I sighed, crossing my arms over my chest. “If it’s to help you get rid of another body I told you last time I was done with that.”
Mum cracked a smile. “Funny,” she said dryly. “No… well…”
“Come on, Mum, spit it out.”
She blew out air between her lips. “I’m worried about telling you because I don’t want you to feel like we’re shoving you aside.”
“See this?” I pointed to my face. “This is what ‘confused’ looks like.”
Mum gave a small huff of laughter. “I’m trying to tell you we’ve turned your room into a nursery.”
I shrugged. “Well, that makes sense. You have the kids staying over here more than I ever do.”
Mum seemed to deflate. “You’re not upset?”
“No, Mum.” I laughed. “I’m a grown woman with a very nice flat just up the road. It even has a bedroom in it. Two, actually.”
She rolled her eyes. “Make fun all you want, but I’m still your mother and you’re still my baby and I didn’t want you to feel like we were ousting you from the house. We’ve got a single bed in the nursery so you can stay whenever you need to, and of course at Christmastime.”
Shaking my head at the unnecessary worry in her eyes, I walked over to her, arms outstretched, and pulled her into a tight hug. “I can’t believe you were worrying over telling me this.”
She melted into me. “It’s what mums do.”
After a while I pulled back. “I take it you didn’t get rid of my stuff, though?”
“No. We boxed it up. I thought maybe you could go through it just now and decide what you want to keep and what you want to throw out.”
I really should have been getting back home to start work, but Mum and Dad never asked much of me and I knew it would help them out if I got organized as quickly as possible. “Okay. Oh, Sunday lunch might be out for me tomorrow. Got a pile of marking.”
“Oh, well, just leave the boxes for now, sweetheart.”
“Nah.” I waved her off, heading toward the stairs. “I was probably going to have to miss it anyway.”
Although I knew I would be walking into a different room from the one I’d left behind, it surprisingly winded me a little to see the cream walls painted a warm buttercream yellow, to see that my double bed had been removed and replaced with a beautiful whitewashed cot and a single bed. The posters I’d left up on the walls were all down, the books I’d left were packed away, and the photographs of my friends were boxed up too.
I stared at the boxes stacked on the floor at the far end of the room. My childhood was inside them, my developing personality, my teen years. I smiled as I walked toward them.
An hour or so later I’d pushed aside boxes of clothes that could go to charity, Dad had returned home and come upstairs to say hello and leave me with a cup of tea and a biscuit, and I was just ripping open a box I assumed was filled with books because it was heavy.
I found some books inside, but I also found diaries. My heart thudded a little at the sight of them, and I lifted them out to put them aside, with no intention of reading them. Ever. I was just lowering them to the “to keep” pile when a photograph floated out of the leaves of a black journal from my later teen years.
My heart no longer thudded.
It pounded.
Eight years ago
My English teacher had held me back after class to talk about entering my short story in a local competition. The thought freaked me out. My writing… on display like that to people who would judge whether it was good enough or not? I said no, thanks.
So why was I kicking myself as I hurried out of the school entrance toward the gate? I glanced around, noting that nearly everyone was gone. I’d missed the bus. It looked like I was walking home.
I hung my head, heaving a sigh.