The Rise and Fall of a Dragonking - By Lynn Abbey Page 0,31
the waters didn’t come at all…
Altogether, there were too many unanswerable questions even for a mind of immortal subtlety. For the first time since Hamanu had begun writing his history, delving into his past was preferable to the present or future. He swirled an oil drop across the ink stone’s surface. When the ink was ready, Hamanu picked up the stylus and wrote without hesitation.
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For five years, I fought beside Jikkana in the army of Myron Troll-Scorcher. There was nothing about her that reminded me of Dorean or Deche, which is probably why I stayed so long. She was a hard and homely creature who cursed and swore and drank too much whenever she had the opportunity. I never knew if in me she saw the son she’d never had or simply another farm boy with fire in his gut, who would finish the brawls she started.
Jikkana taught me human script and how to fight with a knife or a club, with my teeth, fists or my feet—or whatever else was available. She had a temperament like broken glass, and sooner or later, she fought with everyone, me included. In all the years she marched with the Troll-Scorcher’s army, though, she came no closer to fighting trolls than that day I’d met her in Deche.
As the sun descended through the Year of Priest’s Fury, two decades’ dissipation in the Troll-Scorcher’s army caught up with Jikkana. Her lanky muscles melted like fat in the fire. Leathery flesh hung in folds from her arms and chin. She coughed all night and spat out bloody bits of lung when morning came. I carried both kits as we marched and foraged for herbs that might restore her, but it made no difference. One afternoon, she collapsed by the side of the road.
I offered to carry her along with her kit.
“Don’t be a fool, Manu,” she answered me, adding a curse and a cough at the end. “I’ve gone as far as I can go, farther than I’d’ve gone without you. No farther, boy. Let’s get it over with.”
Jikkana handed me her knife. I made the cut she wanted. I’d wrung bird necks when I helped Mother prepare supper, and I’d held the ropes while Father slaughtered culls from our herd. I was no stranger to death, but as men measure such things, Jikkana’s death marked the first time I’d killed. Life’s light faded quickly from her eyes; she didn’t suffer. I held her corpse until it had cooled and stiffened. Then I carried her to that night’s camp. Jikkana had been the first teacher in my life after Deche, and I paid for what we drank as we sang her spirit off through the night. When the sky began to brighten, I dug her a grave and piled stones atop it to keep the vermin from digging her up for supper.
The long shadows of dawn bound me to her grave.
I expected to weep, but my tears never flowed. There were none inside me. I had wept in terror when Deche had been destroyed, but I hadn’t wept for Dorean. I couldn’t weep for anyone else.
I scratched Jikkana’s name onto a shoulder bone, forming the letters the way she’d taught me, then I shoved the narrow end among the rocks. I’d scratched a few words as well on the underside, using the trollish script I’d learned in the ruins above Deche, which none of my companions could read. Stretching the truth a bit, I wrote that Jikkana was an honorable woman and that she’d never laid hands on a troll, which was true enough and might give the trolls a moment’s pause before they desecrated her grave.
There were trolls nearby. There were always trolls nearby in those years. After a generation of retreat, Windreaver had brought his army back into human-held land. Deche was among the first of the human villages that fell to Windreaver’s wrath those five years while I marched beside Jikkana. We never caught up the trolls that killed Dorean and my family, though we’d followed them for almost a year and saw more examples of their handiwork than I had the heart to count.
But there were trolls nearby, and we’d learn to track them. We made reports to the Troll-Scorcher or his officers when they rode their rounds.
We never fought trolls. Never. Neither Jikkana nor Bult, the yellow-haired man who led our band, nor any of the veterans had a notion how to fight our gray-skinned enemies. That’s how