out of his pocket. “Want one?” I hold out a hand, so he pulls another one out and gives it to me.
“Do you keep a stash of suckers on you at all times? You’re always eating them.”
“I have an issue with grinding my teeth. The suckers help.”
“If you keep eating them at the rate you do, you won’t have any teeth left to grind.”
“I’ve never even had a single cavity. And don’t act like you don’t enjoy how I taste.”
I grin. “You do taste pretty good.”
“Shelby hated my sucker habit,” he says. “She said they made my lips sticky.”
“Who?” I’m only teasing when I ask that, but he takes it like I’ve been insulted that he brought her up.
“Sorry. I didn’t mean to go there. I don’t want to be that boyfriend who talks about his ex.”
“I actually have a lot of questions, but I don’t want to be that girlfriend who makes you talk about your ex.”
He pulls the sucker out of his mouth. “What do you want to know?”
I think about his question for a moment. There’s a lot I want to know, but I ask him the most pressing question. “When she broke up with you after I gave you a ride that day, why did you seem so heartbroken?” I’ve been wondering how he could seem so affected by it that day but be perfectly okay with it now. It makes me worry he’s hiding something.
His finger gently brushes over the top of my hand. “I wasn’t necessarily upset about her breaking up with me. I was upset because she thought I cheated on her. I didn’t want her thinking that, so I was hell bent on making her believe me.”
“Does she know you broke up with her for me?”
“I didn’t break up with her for you.”
“Oh,” I say, a little taken aback. “You sort of made it sound like you did.”
Miller readjusts himself in the seat, sliding his fingers through mine. “I broke up with her because when I went to sleep at night, I wasn’t thinking about her. And when I woke up in the morning, I wasn’t thinking about her. But I didn’t break up with her just so I could date you. I would have broken up with her whether you and I ended up together or not.”
It doesn’t seem like there’s much of a difference in breaking up with someone for someone else or because of someone else, but it feels like it makes all the difference in the world when he explains it.
“Has it been a weird adjustment? You guys were together for a long time.”
He shrugs. “It’s been different. Her mom never cared if I spent the night at her house on weekends, so Saturday nights at home with Gramps are taking some getting used to.”
“Her mom let you sleep at her house? Like . . . in her bed?”
“It’s unconventional, I know. But her parents are pretty lenient in a lot of areas. And technically, she’s an adult in college. I guess that had a lot to do with it.”
“My mom will never let you spend the night. Just putting that out there.”
Miller laughs. “Believe me, I got that vibe from her. I’ll be surprised if I’m even allowed to visit you in broad daylight.”
I hate that he feels this way. I hate that my mother made him feel this way. And if I’m being honest, it worries me that it’ll be a turnoff for him later down the line, if she never accepts that he’s my boyfriend.
I can’t even believe I’m saying that. Miller Adams is my boyfriend.
We’re both facing each other now, our bodies turned toward each other in the theater seats. It’s so quiet in here that we can hear the rumbling of the movie playing on the other side of the wall.
I try not to think about everything he just said, because now I’m worried about all the times he stayed at Shelby’s house. All the times he slept in her bed. Will he eventually miss that? I’ve never had sex, and with the way my mother has been acting, I’m not sure she’ll ever allow Miller to come over. She might even put a stop to me going out altogether, just to try and break us up. I hope not, but with her behavior this past month, I wouldn’t put it past her.
I feel like Miller has been completely honest with me, so I want to do the same. I pull the sucker