Ravage (Royal Fae Academy #1) - Lacey Carter Andersen Page 0,46

around her. Sitting in a pile on the floor holding her as emotions roll off of her until we slowly feel them easing. She’s breathing hard, tears rolling down her face.

“We all miss him so much,” Lucian whispers.

“He’s all I had.” She brushes the tears from her face as the words come tumbling out.

I can’t help myself. I catch her hand. “That’s not true.”

“It is,” she says. “I had you guys but then…then something changed, and I lost you.”

I can’t stop as I stroke her wrist. “You never lost us. We were just giving you time.”

“Time for what?” she asks.

I want to tell her the truth, but I can’t. “Time to grow up. Because the way we felt about you…it wasn’t the same.”

Her eyes widen. Hell. Did I say too much?

And then she leans forward and kisses me. I’m so shocked that for a minute I don’t react. I see Bron’s hands go to her waist as she leans forward in his lap, and Lucian’s jaw drops open from beside us. And then I close my eyes and give into the sensation of her soft lips on mine.

I’m lost to the world, to everything except her. Her lips part and her tongue slips inside, and I can’t think. My cock hardens, and I just enjoy this moment, knowing that soon it’ll be over. Soon she’ll put up her walls again, closing us off from her, and this is all we’ll have.

When Esmeray breaks our kiss and leans away from me, we’re both panting.

I don’t know what that kiss meant, but I swear I will remember it the rest of my life.

She glances at Lucian and Bron, then back at me. “So, how does this work? I’ve never had a foursome before.”

16

Esmeray

They’d stayed away from me because their feelings had changed for me? They wanted me as more than just a friend? After stroking their cocks in my room, it wasn’t exactly a surprise that they found me attractive. But it was a surprise that when they left, and stopped visiting, it wasn’t because of something I did or said.

For years I would replay that last visit in my mind. I was seventeen and so eager for them to return and fill my life with laughter and fun, but their entire demeanor had changed the second they came. I’d gone over everything in my mind over and over again and tried to figure out what I did wrong. What I did that pushed them away.

And now I knew. And it was nothing the loner dark fae had done.

Now all I wanted was to touch them. It might not mean anything tomorrow. It might just be a good lay, but at least tonight we’d have each other. At least for a little while I wouldn’t feel this soul-crushing loneliness anymore.

“Esmeray,” Lucian says, clearing his throat. “I’m not sure this is what you want.”

“Why don’t you let me tell you what I want?” I know how I sound, and I don’t care. Because light fae are always so strange about sex. They don’t understand that sometimes a good fuck is just a good fuck. And from Bron’s hard dick pressing against my ass, and the way Dwade kissed me, I know they want this, if they just let themselves.

“Maybe a good night’s sleep and a--”

“Fuck me,” I interrupt. “And I’ll show you how I like it.”

When no one responds, I get frustrated. I stand and slowly start to undress. None of them stop me. Jaws drop. Eyes widen. But no one tells me to stop. Which I take as a good sign.

When I’m naked, I cock a brow, then pick one of their bedrolls and lie down. I’m surprised when Lucian stands and takes off his shirt, before coming to stand over me, looking uncertain. And aroused as hell when he stares down at my body.

I spread my legs. “Come and taste me.”

Fuck, I’ve never seen him move so fast. He crumbles to his knees, and his eyes are wild as they stare down at me. “You just want me to--”

“Do you know how?” I challenge.

The look he gives me takes my breath away. “I sure as hell do.”

“Then put that dirty mouth to good use.”

He leans down, and I expect him to be a good boy and do as I ask. Instead, I watch him suspiciously as he kisses me. Did he not understand? I shift beneath him, feeling frustrated. But then his lips begin to kiss me harder and deeper, and