saying that out loud, but he thought maybe it would help him believe it.
It didn’t.
Letting out a long breath, he shook his head and left the bathroom, despite the temptation to knock on her door and ask. He’d leave it to God, as Elli would tell him to do. He believed she was it, but maybe she wasn’t. But then, that wasn’t an option. He needed her to show up, or he was going to lose his shit. He had lived too long in a life that he did not love; he was ready to love his life and her.
Shutting his door, he looked toward Mena’s door as he always did and saw that Karson was in there rocking her to sleep. He nodded his head at Jordie and Jordie nodded back before turning to head to the kitchen for a snack before he left. He really didn’t like the stale cookies and coffee they served at AA. He wished he would have called Shea or Elli to go, but he figured he’d try to go alone. He’d have to do it sooner or later.
When he got into the living room, he noticed that Karl and Regina were outside, enjoying the sunshine and had a big bowl of something that look delicious. Deciding he’d spend some time with them and see if they’d share their food, he made his way toward the door, but he paused when he heard Kacey’s voice.
“I just don’t know what to do,” she said, and then he heard the chair pull out. “I mean, I have to tell Liam no, I’m not going. I don’t love him.”
“Right,” Lacey agreed. “There was no hope there.”
“Exactly, but it’s just so frustrating, you know? I mean, I tried so hard, but nothing.”
“I know, but I think you did that to get someone else out of your mind,” Lacey said and Kacey let out a long breath.
“With him, I never have to try,” Kacey whispered and Jordie smiled.
“Which means something,” Lacey sang and Kacey groaned.
“Ugh, Lacey, he kissed me last night.”
“What!?” Lacey hollered and Kacey quickly shushed her. Leaning against the wall, Jordie knew he was wrong for listening, but he had to know what she was saying. What she was thinking? Scooting along the wall so he could hear better, he knocked into one of Mena’s toys and closed his eyes in response.
“What was that?”
Shit! He was caught.
When neither of them started yelling at him, he opened his eyes as Lacey said, “Probably Karson playing with Mena. Now, focus! What do you mean he kissed you, and why are you just now telling me?”
“I didn’t plan it, or even want it—okay, that’s a lie—but he just did it and said all this stuff about wanting to love me. It was weird but perfect at the same time. I just don’t know what to think.”
“Maybe that he’s telling the truth?” she asked. “I told you he changed.”
He’d always loved Lacey. Since the moment he met her, he’d known she was a good gal, and after this, he was going to buy her whatever she wanted.
“Lacey, come on, people don’t change.”
“Yes, they do, if they really want to. I swear to you, Kacey, he isn’t the same guy he was a year ago.”
Wasn’t that the damn truth?
“I don’t know, he just hurt me so bad. Broke me in two. Yes, I know that’s dramatic and very high school, but really. I’m haunted by it all. I mean, it took everything within me to pick myself up. Especially after the baby. That really gutted me.”
“I know, Kacey, but everyone deserves a second chance, don’t you think?”
“Yes, I do. But how can I trust him? I’ve forgiven him, but how do I forget?”
Jordie looked down, guilt drowning him as Lacey asked, “I don’t know, but can you live with yourself if you don’t give him the chance to at least explain himself? No one said anything about taking him back—though I vote yes. I know how you feel about him, but maybe just hear him out.”
“I don’t know,” Kacey admitted. “Maybe I should say fuck it all and go with Liam?”
Lacey laughed. “I like the idea of giving Jordie the chance to explain why he did what he did better.”
Some dishes crashed together and Jordie thought they were done, but then Kacey asked, “Would you give him a chance to explain if it was you and Karson and he did what Jordie did?”
Lacey didn’t even hesitate. “Yes, because I’ve always loved him,