hour professing our love to one another then it was time to let him get back to sleep.
Around 10:00 AM, everyone was to meet in the second floor conference room of the hotel for the welcoming brunch and pick up the itinerary for the next nine days of our trip. We were to travel to the Panathenian, the Acropolis, and the city of Haeronia and Adelphi. Then cruise to the island of Aegina, Poros, and Hydra. My days of sightseeing were filled with adventure and excitement of the fascinating past along with modern day Greece. At night, when I would return to my hotel room, I was greeted by the sweet smell of the roses which made my heartache with loneliness. I missed the hell out of Jordan. All I could think of was I wanted to be held, kissed, and made love to. I would lie in bed and smell the sweet aroma of the flowers and dream of being in his arms. Every morning, I would talk to Jordan from Greece. My phone bill was adding up, but I didn’t care. I needed to hear my man’s voice to keep me sane; I needed the connection.
One of our conversations was most disturbing. For some reason Jordan wasn’t his self. His voice was uneasy and distant. It took a while but when I finally got him to tell me why, I almost cried. Jordan told me that he didn’t want any more kids and feared that his selfishness would someday come between us. I hadn’t even thought about kids! But if that meant so much to him, I was willing to forego children to save our relationship. So I promised Jordan something that I would have never promised anyone else. I promised Jordan, I would never get pregnant. With Jordan at my side, I knew my life was complete; and by promising him never to have kids would be a sacrifice I could live with. “Baby, are you sure you won’t change your mind or have regrets later on?” he asked “I’m sure.” To this day I have no idea where the baby conversation originated from, but I assured him that I was in the relationship for the long haul. Even though deep down inside I someday wanted to be a mommy, I wanted to be with him more. But now, it would only be Jordan and Haley together forever. After we hung up, I took a walk to clear my head.
When I returned from my walk it was time for me to meet the rest of my group for our excursion to Mount Olympus. I was in no mood to be sociable; I didn’t want to speak with any of my fellow tourist including John. On the last night of the trip, I ventured into the city to do last-minute shopping and ran into John unexpectedly at a café. As I walked thru the door, he was sitting at the first table by himself. I made contact and backed out of the door. About a block away from the restaurant, John caught up with me and asked if we could sit down and talk.
John expressed how hurtful it was to be in such a beautiful city with me, and we couldn’t even be cordial to one another. He wanted to rehash our failed relationship and point out the things that he felt went wrong. Then he did the unexpected, he told me that he wanted this trip to be our honeymoon! In a matter of two seconds, the blood rose to the top of my head and I went off! How dare he try and justify the mind games, better yet continue the mind games and attempt to make me feel guilty. And as far as marriage! Being married to him was out of the question! When I finished getting everything off my chest regarding our so-called relationship, I had a crowd around us. He apologized for his actions and asked if we could call a truce. Reluctantly, I agreed then shook hands. He suggested since it was our last night in Greece, as a peace offering he wanted to take me to a jazz club. So we walked back to the hotel dropped off my bags and met John in the lobby. We walked to a club about five blocks away. The music was great! It put me in a good mood. Ironically, the band that was playing was from New York too. After four drinks we