she feel like she’d overdone it. He made her forget the dizziness and pains from earlier. She felt like a woman who very much wanted her husband.
“Up for some crazy lovemaking?” he asked with a wink and she tried not to smile. She regarded that sexy face with his sparkling bright eyes and even brighter smile and thought she’d never tire of his crazy lovemaking … or him.
“Always,” she answered.
“Good. I missed you so damn much,” he said as his lips traveled down her neck towards her breasts. He bit the nipple through the fabric and she cried out at the pleasure of it. Pushing her bra out of the way, his hot mouth made contact with her aching nipple and her body arched further into him.
“My little hornball,” he said, grinding his deliciously hard cock against her clit.
“Only yours,” she agreed, lifting her hips into his.
That movement spurred her husband into action. He ripped her panties right off her legs, his eyes locked on his goal, and then he stripped himself of his clothes and hurried back to her.
“I hate being away from you. All I do is think of you and how much I want to be inside of you,” he said, punctuating his last words by pushing into her. “Fuck, you feel so damn good,” he exclaimed, taking one leg and placing it on his shoulder. He held it there while he fucked her good, and when he was close, he moved his hand to her clit and lit her body on fire.
But when the orgasm should have come, a painful spasm gripping her abdomen came instead. When she should have cried out in ecstasy, she cried out in agony.
Ethan must have noticed the difference because he immediately stopped moving. Another pain, much stronger, like her worst period cramps ever times ten, followed.
“What’s wrong, suga?” he asked moving off to her side, his hand gripping her face. She tried to answer but another jolt of pain coursed through her abdomen and a wet stickiness coated her inner thighs.
No, no, no, she thought as the urge to push became stronger. She tried to fight it but it hurt so much.
“Ethan!” she called out. “The doctor!”
Fear gripped her as instinct took over and she pushed—she was losing her babies and she couldn’t stop it. Ethan called the doctor but Mia knew it was too late. The tears rushed to her eyes just as the life rushed out between her legs.
While laying on the hospital bed waiting for the doctor to get the ultrasound set up, Mia knew—she’d lost the babies. With her eyes trained on the ceiling, she didn’t want to look at the ultrasound screen. As the ER doctor moved the wand through the warmed gel on her stomach, she reached out for Ethan’s hand with just a small amount of hope that maybe—just maybe—it was only one baby and the other was still alive. But when Ethan’s grip on her hand tightened, she knew there was no hope. There were no babies.
“I’m sorry, Mia,” the doctor said but she immediately started to tune him out. “You miscarried both fetuses … we would like to perform a D&C … this isn’t your fault … nature’s way.”
Her babies were gone.
The doctor cleaned off the ultrasound gel from her belly and covered her back up with the hospital gown and then the blanket. He squeezed her knee and left the room.
The bed groaned as Ethan lay down beside her. She put up no resistance when he gathered her in his arms. Thankfully he didn’t say a word. Mia had no idea what to say to her husband. She couldn’t find her will to speak or think.
Numb. That’s what she was.
She let Ethan hold her as she lay limply in his arms and hoped this brought him comfort because that’s all she could give him right now.
She’d failed him.
She had lost their babies.
The doctor may have told her it wasn’t her fault, that it was nature’s way, that sometimes pregnancies didn’t stay viable, but that answer was unacceptable to her. She knew it was something she had done. Maybe she pushed herself too hard. Maybe it was all the drugs and alcohol she’d done when she was younger.
Her choices.
Ethan adjusted his hold on her and brought her closer to him. Letting her head rest on his chest, her eyes landed on the door and she stared at it until her vision blurred and she felt her mind blur along with it.