the video, followed by the peals of laughter of the other men.
“Yep, definitely Mia,” said Ethan, the master of her moans.
She saw it now—in her mind. That memory from many years ago—of her and Tom making love. Kissing him. Touching him. His body covering hers. His mouth on her breasts. He had not been gentle with her breasts that night. She’d liked the way he’d used his teeth. It had felt glorious. That’s why she’d moaned.
“Okay. I think memory lane is over,” she said, reaching for the remote, but it was gone. She searched the area. Shit. Where was it?
“Looking for this?” Todd asked, holding up the remote.
“You fucker,” she spat at him, listening to her moans getting louder and more frequent.
“Go look, Marc!” Marty said, hitting Marc hard enough to make what Marc was filming blurry. “We need to know.”
“Ah, fuck,” she heard Marc say. She thought it was the video but when she looked over at him and caught his eye, he mouthed, “Sorry.”
She turned back to the screen and saw the camera going down the hallway. The door started to open. Oh, God! No way was she going to let everybody see her and Tom making love. No way in hell. Mia was across the floor so fast. She stopped the tape and quickly hit eject.
“Show’s over,” she said, ignoring the disappointed groans. She quickly got up and ran to her storage area. She punched in her code, entered, and shut herself inside.
“Holy fuck!” she cursed softly, sliding to the floor. A tape of a momentous night she could not remember … until now. Flashes of that night attacked her. His words beacons in her mind.
“Mia, you’re so beautiful,” he’d told her while sucking at her breast.
“I’ve wanted you for so long,” he’d said as he entered her for the first time. They’d had sex a couple times that night. Yet she hadn’t remembered it for eleven years. Even after Tom had told her. It wasn’t until seeing this video, hearing it, that it all came back.
She got up and put the video away. She’d watch the full video at a later date because she needed to see what else had happened, see if this really was a sex tape.
When Mia exited the room, everyone was heading upstairs. Ethan came to her side and she couldn’t help but wonder what he thought about all that—the drugs and Tom. Glancing over at him, she saw him smile softly at her. At least there was no anger.
“Don’t do drugs, Ethan. Evil, they are. Eleven years. I did not remember that for eleven years. Fuck, Lizzie probably hates me,” she said, looking back at the family room.
“She said she knew that Tom had slept with you. He told her about it. I guess he’d asked for advice.”
“Oh?”
“It appears he liked you.” She expected jealousy but there was none.
“I liked him too,” she admitted.
“Really?” he asked, his eyes going wide at that confession.
“Oh, yeah. I had a huge crush on him. But I didn’t know how to make that move. Remember, I’m awkward.”
He shook his head at that, not believing. “Far from it.”
“Oh, I was back then. So very awkward.”
“So, a sex tape …” he said.
“Are you mad?”
He sighed and with that, she knew he wasn’t exactly happy about what he saw. “It happened,” he answered with a shrug of his shoulders. “I’ll be honest, it wasn’t the most pleasant thing to see, but I got something I wouldn’t have gotten otherwise.”
“What?”
“Insight into you,” he said. She stopped walking at that admission. He joined her, yet his eyes stayed on the closed door and after a moment, he spoke. “You ever gonna let me in there?” he asked.
In the four years they had been married, she hadn’t given him the security code to that room. He’d been inside—with her there, making sure he didn’t get into things she didn’t want him to see, like the journals she’d written when they weren’t together, before and after their initial relationship. Perhaps she should share that with him …
Not just that …
She needed to work on being more open with him. Maybe letting him in that room would help her share those bits of her past as well as the ones that weren’t in there. Like how she felt after the miscarriage being one main example.
“Maybe,” she said with a grin. She saw a hint of disappointment in his eyes before he smiled at her. Yeah, she needed to share what was in there