Never Give Up - Heidi Lis Page 0,14

searching for, but the look he’s giving me tells me he will make it good, that he is right for me.

“Do you trust me, El?” His emerald eyes implore me.

Not able to find my voice, I simply nod.

“Do you want me?”

I nod again.

“Thank Christ,” he says, with a pant.

Leaning forward, he takes my lips again, bearing his full weight. My arms automatically wrap around him and my legs easily fall open. With the help of his hand, Nick lines himself to my center. Feeling him there, I panic and damn near jump off the bed.

“Hey baby, just feel me. Let go.” Repeating this many times in my ear.

A humming noise escapes my throat.

I’m so excited. I know I’m beyond wet, more like drenched because his erection glides with ease, sliding over my clit with every stroke. Arching my back, he takes advantage and sucks a nipple into his mouth while continuing to torture me with his erection sliding up and down my center. This time, I’m losing it. The stars come out, and I scream his name.

“Holy hell, that was hot.” He’s breathing hard, yet I’m the one who had the over the top orgasm.

Blinking rapidly, I’m gasping for my next breath. “Oh, that was…just wow.”

Each moan escaping his mouth is louder than the last in the process of kissing his way up my neck settling on my lips. “Oh baby, you are in for a surprise. Get ready, Elsa.” Nick says nervously while sliding on a condom. The minute I see the green wrapper, I tense up…terrified. My saving grace this time is I’m on the pill and have been for years. Not that I necessarily needed it, but I’ll be damned if I would allow that to happen to me again. My heart would not survive it.

“You okay?” I’m sure the look on my face is nothing less than horrific.

Blinking rapidly, I whisper, “Yeah, of course. It’s just…you know.”

With a nod of his head, his look tells me he understands exactly what I meant. “Baby, I’ll make sure you’re okay. I know what you’re thinking, I also know you’re on the pill. I’ve seen you take it for years. No worries.”

Having him candidly acknowledge my pill routine, enlightens me to how much he knows about me. Lining himself up, he takes his time, kissing my neck. With my thoughts held hostage, I close my eyes fighting what I’ve been avoiding. I knew whenever I had sex again, Micah would no longer be the only one who would have touched me this way. Deeply, not only in my body, but my soul as well. I’ve kept that part reserved solely for him. Maybe that’s part of my problem.

Nick gently pushes inside as tears escape my eyes. I’ve got so many different emotions swirling in my mind. My sudden panic attack halts my breathing, and I hold onto his arms with an iron grip. Nick continues to push himself into me, an inch at a time.

His body shakes over mine. “Oh shit, Elsa, you’re so tight.”

Those innocent words sink into my mind, cutting me deep. The slight shred of pain coming from him stretching me does nothing compared to the pain that’s tearing my heart in two. Taking every inch of him he has to give, my mind echoes, “Good-bye Micah,” as my tears fall for one final goodbye.

TAKING A QUIET MOMENT to replay my night with Nick, I’m slowly sipping coffee from my favorite mug. My lower body is sore, of course, I knew it would be. Once was not enough for him, he had taken me again before we fell asleep. Emotionally and physically, I’m drained, yet last night was very therapeutic. By allowing Nick in, I’m finally able to let Micah go. I knew it sounded crazy, but to me… it meant everything.

Liza interrupts me when she strolls into the kitchen while sporting the biggest grin possible. I bust out laughing as my tired, weary eyes hit hers.

“Well, well, well… how was it?” Her hushed voice indicates she knew Nick is still here.

Walking by her I bump her shoulder, looking around the corner to see if Nick was in fact still asleep in my room. “Oh, stop it.”

“Should I go wake up sleeping beauty and ask him?” My evil roommate snickers at me.

My cheeks instantly flush. “Hell NO!” I’m shushing her with my hands.

Raising her wicked eyebrow at me, she’s snapping her fingers. “Give me the goods, how was good ole’ Nick in the sack?”

I nearly choke