Judd flinched. It was such a slight reaction Hawke only caught it because his wolf was watching the other man with a predator's gaze. "We couldn't risk defection when Marlee and Toby were babies." Words so precise, they were coated in frost. "There was a high probability the severance of the PsyNet link—and we always knew we'd have to do that to truly escape—would've killed them outright."
A metal letter opener flew off Hawke's desk and slammed into the stone wall, the handle quivering from the force of the impact. Judd closed his eyes, fisted his hands. It took him over two minutes to speak again. "We had to wait." The bleakness in those words betrayed the cost paid for that wait.
With a wolf, Hawke would've clamped him on the shoulder, dragged him into a hug. But Judd wasn't wolf. Grabbing the handle of the letter opener, he pulled it out with a grunt and handed it to the Psy male. "Get it out."
The letter opener began to twist methodically into a complicated shape before being crushed into an unrecognizable ball of metal, which Judd began to slam into the wall again and again using his telekinesis. Stone chips flew to the floor.
"Did Sienna know she was going to be getting out?" Hawke asked when he judged the Psy male was able to speak again. Know she hadn't been abandoned?
"No. Not for a long time." Judd caught the distorted ball, held it in his hand. "She was too young, and she spent the majority of her time with Ming. We could only trust her with the plan once her shields were strong enough to hide her thoughts from him."
Hawke imagined Sienna as a small girl with eyes of cardinal starlight and hair of darkest red; thought, too, of the fear that must've stolen her breath, squeezed her chest as she was locked inside rooms full of explosives. "One slip of her gift . . ."
"It was a lie at first," Judd said. "Ming wouldn't have risked a cardinal X in such an accident. When she did make a mistake, they triggered explosions calibrated to knock her unconscious and injure her enough that she'd remember to be more careful next time."
Hawke's claws sliced out. "And later?"
"She asked to be put in those rooms." The metal ball spun at rapid speed in the air. "She had to know she'd be safe enough to defect with us."
Hawke didn't know whether he wanted to strangle Sienna for playing with her life that way or hold her tight, shield her from the world. Except of course, that was an impossibility—she was an X, her mind meant to be a weapon. "Will she obey your orders?" His wolf raked him with its claws, but even it knew the decision was the right one.
"Yes." A pause as the ball of metal came to a gentle rest on Hawke's desk. "Yours are the only ones she's ever had trouble with."
No fear, Hawke thought. Even after all she'd been through, Sienna had never been afraid to stand up to him. Good. "I want this planned down to the last minute—in and out as fast as possible."
Judd gave a swift nod, his eyes holding an icy determination, an echo of the memories. "I'll do the prep work today. I'd rather reserve my psychic energies, so we'll fly out tomorrow morning into one of the larger cities. I can teleport us the rest of the distance after nightfall. Do you want in on the planning?"
"No." Hawke knew his instincts when it came to Sienna would get in the way. "Keep me updated."
"I'll get Sienna now."
"Judd." When the lieutenant halted, Hawke walked over and dragged him into a rough embrace. Psy or not, he was a SnowDancer. "Thank you for getting her out." For protecting her when Hawke hadn't known she was out there, hurting.
Judd's eyes were midnight when he pulled back. "She's stronger than all of us."
The words circled in Hawke's mind long after Judd left, but they didn't make his decision any easier to swallow. He was about to send a young woman, his woman, into a hot zone.
JUDD needed his mate with a ferocity bordering on insanity. All but dragging her from her workspace in the tech core of the den, he pulled her into their bedroom and pinned her to the wall. She gasped into his kiss but cooperated when he tore off her clothes, when he opened the front of his jeans and lifted her up by the thighs.
Too fast, too fast, his mind warned. Gritting his teeth, he tried to slow down.
The whisper was a soft, hot breath against his ear. "It's okay, it's okay. Come inside me."
"Brenna." Thrusting into the tight, wet heat of her in a single hard push, he shuddered.
Her nails dug into his back, her legs wrapped around his waist, and her mouth, it took his, holding him safe as he surrendered to the searing depth of his need for her.
Afterward, as they lay on the futon, he told her everything. "I wish I could protect her from this, but if we don't give her an outlet, it'll lead to a dangerous level of frustration."
Brenna drew patterns on his chest with a fingertip. "We women are tougher than you men realize." Propping herself up on one elbow beside him, she braced her cheek on her hand. "She doesn't need that kind of protection anymore—you're giving her what she needs; support to live her life."
"I haven't interfered, but this thing with Hawke . . . I don't know if she's ready."
"Sweetheart, no woman's ever going to be ready for Hawke." It was the driest of statements as she leaned in to press an affectionate kiss to his jaw. "But from what I can see, she's holding her own."
Her words, her touch, it anchored him, settled him. "I need you," he said to her, this woman who'd fought for her own right to live her life free of limits, "to build me some remote detonation devices."
Amazing brown eyes shot with blue peering into his as she pressed her nose to his. "You always say the most romantic things."