A hand on her forearm. "Sienna."
Dropping the pot, she bent to wrap her soapy arms around that gangly preteen body that was no longer that of the child she'd tickled into bed just last year. "How do you always know?" she whispered into his hair.
His arms locked around her neck. "I can see you in our net," he said, speaking of the psychic network that tied all the members of the family to each other. It provided the biofeedback needed by their Psy minds, was what had kept them alive when they'd defected from the sprawling vastness of the PsyNet. "Your mind goes all icy."
She heard the fear in his tone. Any time she got "icy," as he put it, Toby got afraid. Because he understood what she was on an instinctive level that meant she'd never been able to protect him from the harsh truth—Toby saw the monster within and still he loved her, still he needed her.
"Don't go back to the Net, Sienna." A plea. "Please."
"I won't, Toby. I won't." Her earlier intent solidified into stone. If, in spite of everything, she failed to contain her ability, then she would, as Councilor Ming LeBon had once put it, take herself "out of the equation." Her death would hurt Toby, but it wouldn't savage him—not like if he had to watch her turn cold, a Silent stranger who rejected his love as if it was a worthless token. I love you, Toby. A telepathic communication between siblings, as easy as a breath.
I'm so glad you're my sister, Sienna.
They held the embrace a long time. Though Aisha ran a tight ship, she didn't tell Sienna to get a move on. Aisha's eyes smiled when she glimpsed them—the wolves understood touch, understood affection. They couldn't know how much it meant to Sienna that she could openly hold the boy who was a living, breathing piece of her heart.
Since the moment of his birth, she'd had to hide, had to bury everything she felt when it came to Toby. If Ming had discovered the searing depth of a love that had defied Silence itself, the bastard wouldn't have done anything to her. She'd been too important. But he might well have ended Toby's life to "safeguard" Sienna's Silence.
She would've killed him for it, of course.
Hiding that dark thought in a secret corner of her mind where Toby would never sense it, she drew back and brushed his hair out of his eyes as she had a habit of doing. "Why aren't you in school?" Toby attended the small internal school for ages five to thirteen—the older teenagers generally went to a high school outside den territory, except for a few who'd chosen distance learning.
"We got the afternoon off today'cause the teachers got a meeting."
"Toby, your grammar is atrocious." His enunciation and grammar had been PsyNet perfect when they defected—she much preferred him this way.
"Aw, Sienna." Two kisses, one on each cheek. "Can you help me with my homework after you get out of the kitchen?"
"Sure." She rose back up to her full height. "What subject?"
"Science. I have to build a volcano." Cardinal eyes gleamed. "It's going to explode and everything."
Her hand clenched on the scourer she'd just picked up. "Wow." Forcing her fingers to relax, she nodded to the fruit bowl. "Eat an apple. It's good for you."
Toby made a face but obeyed. "Can't I have a cookie instead?"
"No."
"Abuse." But he was smiling as he bit into the shiny red fruit, the smile turning into a grin when Aisha slipped him a palm-sized oatmeal raisin cookie.
"Finish the apple first," the cook ordered, tousling his hair.
"Thanks, Aisha," Toby said before looking back at Sienna, his eyes sparkling in a way that would've startled her if she hadn't seen Sascha Duncan's eyes do the same thing. Because the stars were no longer white. Not quite. It was as if Toby's eyes shimmered with color . . . with life.
Sometimes, Sienna thought Toby had been sent into the world to balance the scales, an antidote to the sister who loved him to the depths of her soul, but who could create only pain, only suffering, only horror.
HAWKE blocked Elias's kick and put the senior soldier on his back. "Damn it, Eli. You're leaving yourself wide open."
Elias lay on the ground, chest heaving. "No, I'm not. You're just not pulling any punches." He winced. "I'm going to set Yuki on you—she doesn't like it when you beat me up."
Unamused, Hawke waited as the other man rolled to his feet. "You said you wanted to spar so you could figure out what you needed to work on."
"I take it back." Elias braced himself with his hands on his knees. "The single person who can spar with you in this kind of a mood is Riley." Rising fully, he shoved a hand through dark brown hair damp with sweat. "I need to give you my report anyway."
Hawke's wolf was tensed and ready for action, but he drew in a long, deep breath, brought the animal under control. "Problems in the city?" DarkRiver and SnowDancer had both kept a constant and visible presence in San Francisco ever since the attempted bombings the previous year.
"I dunno." Elias rubbed his jaw. "The leopards always get the best intel, so you should liaise with them, but my instincts are itching. I can't quite put a finger on it—the thing is, you know we've got more than the usual number of Psy coming into the area."
"Yeah. Side effect of Nikita deciding she no longer supports Silence." Not out of the goodness of her heart, but simply because it made the most political sense. Sascha's mother was one cold bitch. "They causing trouble?"