The punishing might of power implied by that observation was staggering. It made her viscerally aware of the strength of the man who held her in an embrace she'd never be able to break if he decided to keep her prisoner. It should've scared her. But if there was one thing she knew, it was that with Raphael, any fight would be no-holds-barred. There would be no stilettos in the dark, no hurtful blades hidden behind a civilized facade ... unlike the cutting words of another man who'd once claimed to love her.
Her soul pinched in hurt. "I can't avoid my father forever," she said, leaning back against the window again, the cold of the glass almost painful against her wings. "What do you think he'll say when he sees me?" As far as Jeffrey knew, Raphael had saved her broken and dying body by Making her a vampire.
Raphael gripped his hunter's jaw with one hand, placing the other beside her head. "He will see you as an opportunity." Honest words, for he would not lie to her. "A way to gain entry into the corridors of angelic power." If Raphael had his way, Jeffrey Deveraux would even now be rotting in a forgotten grave, but Elena loved her father in spite of his cruelty.
Now, she wrapped her arms around herself, and her words, when they came, were jagged pieces of pain. "I knew that before I asked . . . but part of me can't help hoping that maybe this time, he'll love me."
"As I can't help hoping that my mother will rise, and will once again be the woman who sang me such lullabies that the world stood still." Pulling her into a crushing embrace, he pressed his lips to her temple. "We are both fools."
Thunder crashed at that moment, lightning flashing brilliant in the dark gloom of the world beyond the windowpane. It turned Elena's hair to glittering silver, her eyes to mercury. Those eyes, he thought as he lowered his head, as he took her lips, would change over the centuries, until they might very well become what they appeared under storm-light. Come, Guild Hunter. It is late.
"Raphael." An intimate murmur against his lips. "I'm so cold."
He kissed her again, moving one hand down to close over her breast. Then he took them into the heart of a tempest far more demanding in its wrenching hunger than the winds that raged outside.
The nightmare came again that night. She should've expected it, but it pulled her into the bloody ruins of what had once been her family home with such speed that she had no chance to fight.
"No, no, no." She closed her eyes in childlike defiance.
But the dream forced them open. What she saw made her freeze, her pulse pounding beat after panicked beat at the back of her throat.
There were no broken bodies on the floor slicked by a dark, dark red. Blood. Everywhere she looked, there was blood. More blood than she'd ever seen.
That was when she realized she wasn't in the kitchen where Ari and Belle had been murdered after all. She was in the kitchen of the Big House, the house her father had bought after her sisters . . . After. Gleaming pots hung on hooks above a long stone bench, while a massive fridge stood humming quietly in the corner. The stove was a shiny steel edifice that had always terrified her into keeping her distance.
Tonight, however, that steel was dulled with a rust-red coating that made her gorge rise, made her stumble to look away. At the knives. They lay everywhere. On the floor, on the counters, in the walls. All dripping thick, heavy gobs of deepest red . . . and other, fleshier things. "No, no, no." Clutching her arms around herself, her thin, fragile body that of a child, she skittered her gaze across the nightmare room in search of a safe harbor.
The blood, the knives had vanished.
The kitchen lay pristine once more. And cold. So cold. Always so cold in the Big House, no matter how much she cranked up the heat.
A shift in the dream—she'd been wrong, she thought. This cold place wasn't pristine after all. There was a single high-heeled shoe on the dazzling white of the tile.
Then she saw the shadow on the wall, swinging to and fro.
"No!"
"Elena." Hands gripping her upper arms tight, the clean bright scent of the sea in her mind. "Guild Hunter."
The snapped words cut through the remnants of the dream, wrenching her back into the present. "I'm okay. I'm okay." The words came out jerky, disconnected. "I'm okay."
He pulled her into his arms when she would've jumped out of bed. To do what, she didn't know, but sleep never came easy after the memories hit her with such brutal force. "I need to—"
He shifted until she was half under him, his wings rising to encase them in lush, dark privacy. "Hush, hbeebti." His body, heavy on her own, formed a hard shield against the softly swinging shadow that had chased her across time.
When he dropped his head and murmured more quiet, passionate words in the language that was part of her mother's legacy, she lifted her arms and wrapped them around his neck, trying to pull him down. Trying to drown herself in him. But he squeezed her thigh and raised himself up on one arm so he could look down at her. "Tell me."
Elena had always made sure to hug Beth after the day their family shattered, to ensure her younger sister didn't ever feel the chill, but she'd never had anyone to hold her in turn, never had anyone to smash apart the block of ice that encased her organs for hours after a nightmare. So, the words took time to come, but he was an immortal. Patience was a lesson he'd learned long ago.
"It didn't make sense," she said at last, her voice raw—as if she'd been screaming. "None of it made sense." Her mother hadn't done what she had in the kitchen. No, Marguerite Deveraux had very carefully tied the rope to the strong railing that went around the mezzanine. Her pretty, shiny high heel had dropped onto the gleaming checkerboard tile of the hallway that was the grand entrance to the Big House.
A glossy cherry red, that shoe had made Elena's heart fill with hope for a fractured second. She'd thought her mother had finally come back to them, finally stopped crying ... finally stopped screaming. Then she'd looked up. Seen something that could never be erased from the wall of her mind. "It was all just a big jumble."
Raphael said nothing, but she had not a single doubt that she was the complete and total center of his attention.
"I thought," she said, clenching her hands on his shoulders, "that the nightmares would stop after I killed Slater. He'll never again hurt anyone I love. Why won't they stop?" It came out shaky, not with fear, but with a tight, helpless rage.