Mr. Big Shot (Suits & Sevens #1) - Isla Olsen Page 0,42

I have to step down—”

“Spencer, stop. Look at me.” She yanks at my hand and forces me to look at her. “That’s the absolute last thing I’m worried about now.”

“It shouldn’t be. It’s your job to—”

“Spencer…let’s just…talk? Okay?”

I let out a soft sigh and nod my agreement.

She runs her gaze over my face, her brows knitted together, her mouth twisted into a contemplative frown, as if she’s trying to find something in me that she’s lost. “You never told me you’re bi…”

“That wasn’t anything to do with you,” I assured her. “It wasn’t because I didn’t trust you or something like that…”

“Then what was it?”

I shrug. “There was never really a need to. I didn’t really begin to fully accept that part of me until college and you were off in London by then. I didn’t want to bother you with all of my drama.”

She offers me a sad smile. “You can bother me with your drama any time, Spence, you should know that.”

I shrug. “Yeah well, it really wasn’t that big a deal. I had Sully and Cole—they had a little more expertise in the field than you would have.”

Her mouth drops open in shock. “You and…? You and Sullivan? You and Cole? Sullivan and Cole?”

I shake my head in amusement, a smile creeping across my lips. “Sullivan yes, Cole no. Or, well…actually,” I hold my hand up in a so-so gesture, “I guess we did kiss one time, but it never went any further than that. It was all weird and awkward—we’re like brothers.” I shiver at the memory of that ridiculously awkward kiss.

“But, Sullivan?”

I shrug. “Yeah, we hooked up for a while—that’s actually how we became friends, really. It never became anything serious, though. He was completely hooked on someone else and I wasn’t even close to being ready to commit to a guy, so it was a good arrangement for us.”

“And since college?” she asks.

“There’s been the odd hookup here and there. I always figured I’d tell you if I found someone worth telling you about,” I say with a shrug. “I mean, I don’t tell you when I hook up with women so why should it be any different, right?”

She looks at me with those hazel eyes that match my own, her expression one of sympathy. “This is what you wanted to talk to me about tomorrow night, isn’t it? You found someone worth telling me about?”

I look down at my glass of scotch, the dull ache in my chest increasing to a sharp pain as I think about Will’s betrayal. “Yeah, well, I guess I was wrong about that.” I lift the glass to my lips and down the liquid in one go.

Emily studies me carefully and I can tell she’s weighing her words, trying to come up with the exact right ones that won’t send me flying off the handle.

“Spit it out, Em.”

After a deep breath, she says, “What if you weren’t?”

“What are you talking about?”

“What if it really wasn’t Will?”

I fix her with a sharp glare. “There’s no one else it could have been.”

“Spence—I saw his face today when he realized you thought he was the one responsible for this…I swear it was like his heart had just been ripped from his chest.”

“If he didn’t do it himself, then he told someone about us—every little detail—and they went to the tabloid. Either way, it’s clear I can’t trust him.”

20

Will

* * *

I can’t remember the last time I was this angry. Add in the hurt and confusion and the way my chest feels like it has just been ripped wide open and it’s no surprise I’m a fucking mess.

After leaving Spencer’s office, I head straight for the bathroom to splash some water on my face in an attempt to calm my nerves, but it’s not really working. I’m angry at Spencer for not trusting me, at myself for stupidly getting involved with my boss in the first place, and just generally at the situation I’ve found myself in where I’m likely going to lose this job that I so badly need.

Should have thought of that before you started screwing your boss, Crawford! Yeah, now I’m back to being angry at myself…

When I get back to my desk I start emptying out my drawers. I figure I may as well leave before they figure out a way to fire me; it’ll be less embarrassing that way and comes with the added bonus that it gets me out of the building right the fuck now.