The fire in Fie’s skull had little to do with her notions of Tavin now. “You don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“You’re just distracting him,” Jasimir said, flat. “And I’m trying to help. Maybe it seems like he’s serious now, but he’s never been with someone for more than a moon.”
“Keep your own damn business,” Fie snapped. “I’m not here to warm my bed. I’m busy keeping you both alive.”
“Why?” She’d set Jasimir off good and true this time. “You’re not bound to anything. You could go any time, collect your kin, and leave us be. But you’re not doing this for the oath anymore, are you?”
Fie’s fist knotted in the stolen fur. Her voice shook. “If I didn’t care about the oath, cousin, I’d have gladly handed you to Tatterhelm myself.”
“Your friend Hangdog certainly seemed to care about keeping the—”
“Enough.” Tavin emerged from the shadows behind them, startling Fie and the prince both. “You should be ashamed of that oath, Jas. It means both our castes are failing to protect our own people.”
Prince Jasimir’s mouth opened and closed. He looked as mortified as Fie felt.
She yanked a change of clothes and the bag of soap-shells free from her pack. “I’ll wash up,” she mumbled, tottering to her feet. Tavin reached to steady her, and she didn’t know if she wanted to veer away or stumble to him.
She settled for neither, slipping past and into the dim passage, head a-whirl. Sure enough, the air thickened with steam the farther she went, soon yawning into a broad, clear pool. Waning daylight curled in the air, streaming from a gap far above.
Fie took a moment to try her three Sparrow teeth. They only lasted a breath, just long enough to show wisps of Vulture tracking spells sloughing off. They must have latched on the moment she fell.
She made a Vulture tooth last longer, searching for Tatterhelm’s supply master with one hand on a belt she’d taken from the dead skinwitches. The trail stretched far beyond the cave, distant enough to buy them at least a night.
The thought of the oath perched on her shoulder while she stripped out of her clothes and brought them with her to wash in the stinging-hot water, cracking a handful of soap-shells with relish.
What sort of Crow turned her back on the roads the Covenant bound her to walk? What sort of Crow practiced at swords? What Crow would cross a skinwitch, threaten a prince, and think folly over a bastard Hawk?
A traitor like Hangdog, part of her said.
A chief like Pa, another pushed back.
And a third whispered, One too hungry to remember fear.
She hadn’t any answer by the time she climbed out of the pool, scrubbed near-sore and happier for it. She didn’t know if she’d have an answer before she reached the Marovar, or even after.
They were close. They would beat Tatterhelm to Trikovoi, and Pa would be her chief again, and the prince would be someone else’s problem, and Tavin … she couldn’t dwell on Tavin.
She wrung out the sodden clothes and pulled on her dry spares, then padded back, sandals in hand. A bowl of dinner sat by the campfire; Prince Jasimir brushed past her, wordlessly bearing an armful of dishes and dirty clothes to the spring. Tavin was nowhere to be seen. She scowled. That meant he’d taken her watch.
The glamour still needed to be pasted on again, no matter how tired she was. Fie laid her wet clothes out to dry by the fire, then plucked the bowl from the ground and went in search of the Hawk.
She found him near the mouth of the cave, a handful of pelts at his side to ward off the frosty night ahead. Indigo pines carpeted the valley below them; threads of lightning stitched a sky plush with storm clouds.
Tavin glanced back at her, and something like the lightning flickered through his eyes. Then that old, practiced paper-screen look walled it off once more.
Fie decided the glamour could wait until after she’d eaten. She sat beside him, shoveling rice and pork into her mouth with dried panbread. The air’s chill slid down her waterlogged hair, clinging to her scalp. “This is my watch.”
“How far off are they?” he asked quietly.
Fie put one hand on a stolen fur, then called the Vulture tooth back to life. It showed her a clear path through the trees this time, somewhere beyond the storm. Less than a day off now. Creeping closer.