last comment, but for once she didn’t know what to say.
She climbed back onto her horse, took hold of the reins of the other one and trotted them up the hill the way they had come.
Near the top she saw Victor watching her and steered towards him. ‘You angry with me too?’ she asked as she halted her horse.
‘You could at least wait until after he has instructed the men before you try to kill him. Just because you don’t approve of him doesn’t mean you can act like that,’ Victor added.
‘Okay,’ Louisa said, as if she’d had enough preaching for one day. ‘But today he helps us, tomorrow he helps Neravista. That’s the problem I have with him.’
‘How do you know that?’
‘Victor, you are as bad at judging people’s characters as my father is. Look at the man. Look at what he does.’
‘Before he came here perhaps he would have done the same for Neravista. But I don’t think he would now.’
‘He’s won your trust easily.’
‘Does my opinion no longer count with you?’
‘You know that’s not true.’ Louisa sighed heavily, wanting to change the subject. ‘I’m worried, Victor.’
‘You mean about last night?’
‘Is Sebastian going to lose control?’
Victor did not have an answer for that question. ‘It’s going to be different from now on, I think.’
‘What do you think will happen?’
‘I think you should leave. Go back to America or Europe.’
Louisa rejected that advice with a dismissive gesture. ‘If my mother had not died this rebellion might never have begun when it did. Did you know that?’
‘Your mother died long before the uprising.’
‘It took Sebastian several years to make his plans. He didn’t begin making them until after she died. She gave him her blessing on her deathbed. She fought against it while she was alive but she knew that was all he would live for once she was gone and so she made it easier for him. He would have succeeded had she been alive.’
‘You talk like it’s already over.’
‘I’m afraid for him.’
‘You think you can take the place of your mother?’
‘Is that so ridiculous?’
Victor did not know how to answer.
‘I can’t leave him, whatever happens. Tell me, why do you stay?’
Victor thought for a moment. ‘I believe in destiny, that I was put on this earth for a purpose. It wasn’t until I came here that I knew what that was. You see, I have always believed that the world was headed inexorably towards peace and contentment for all, no matter what evil existed. I never expected that it would be achieved in my lifetime but that didn’t matter. Anything I did to help would not be in vain. Others not yet born would take my place to continue the struggle. But one day I realised there was a flaw in that belief. If it was inevitable, then I was not essential to it. The world doesn’t need me.’
‘So why are you still here?’
He shrugged. ‘For something less noble. Recognition. I want it for myself.’
‘That’s not so bad a reason, Victor. It’s part of what distinguishes us from other living things. It’s only normal.’
Victor smiled, but what he could not tell Louisa was that he had begun to doubt himself. He feared it would lead to self-betrayal, which might eventually become something far worse. He also feared he was not the only one who was changing.
Chapter 3
Back at the stables, Louisa dismounted and handed the reins of Stratton’s horse to a stable boy. As she unbuckled the saddle of her own horse she noticed a man whom she didn’t recognise standing by the corral looking at her. He wore the usual grubby military fatigues of the rebels. He took a piece of paper from a pocket, jammed it into a gap in the fence and walked away, glancing back to make sure she had seen what he’d done.
She watched him as he went down the path that led to the cabins and then she retrieved the note. When she looked back he was gone.
Louisa opened the note and read it, then screwed it up and leaned on the fence. The white horse walked over to her and she stroked his cheeks without focusing on him. He muzzled her hand and moved closer, demanding her undivided attention. ‘Are you feeling neglected today? Be thankful that is the worst of your problems,’ she said softly. ‘Remember one of father’s sayings? It’s your life-changing decisions that give life its meaning . . . That goes for you too.’