Vishous opened a desk drawer, took one out, and double-checked it. "You're good to go. I'll text-message everyone your new number."
"Call me if that thing moves."
As Zsadist turned his back on them, Phury took another drag and held the breath in tight. The door to the tunnel shut solidly.
Without even realizing what he was doing, Phury stabbed out the hand-rolled and went after his twin.
In the tunnel, Z halted when he heard another set of footsteps. As the male pivoted around, the light overhead picked out the hollows under his cheekbones and the blunt cut of his jaw and the line of the scar.
"What?" he asked, his deep voice echoing. Then he frowned. "Let me guess. This is about Bella."
Phury stopped. "Maybe."
"Definitely." Z's eyes flicked downward and stayed on the tunnel's floor. "You can smell her on me, can't you."
In the long silence between them, Phury wished desperately that he had a blunt between his lips.
"I just need to know... is she all right after you... laid with her?"
Z crossed his arms over his chest. "Yeah. And don't worry, she's not going to want to do that again."
OK God. "Why?"
"I made her..." Z's distorted lip thinned. "Whatever."
"What? What did you do?"
"I made her hurt me." As Phury recoiled, Z laughed with a low, sad sound. "Yeah, you don't need to get all protective. She's not coming near me again."
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"How... What happened?"
"UAH-Hugh, right. Let me count all the ways you and I aren't going there."
Suddenly, without any warning, Z focused on Phury's face. The force of the stare was a surprise, because the male rarely looked anyone in the eye. "Straight up, my brother, I know how you're feeling her and I... ah, I hope that when things cool out a little, maybe you can... be with her or something."
Was he insane? Phury thought. Was he fucking insane?
"How the hell would that work, Z? You've bonded with her."
Zsadist rubbed his skull trim. "Not really."
"Bullshit."
"It doesn't matter, how about that? Pretty damn soon she's going to snap out of this post-traumatic whatever she's got going on and she's going to want someone real."
Phury shook his head, knowing damn well that a bonded male didn't give up his feelings for his female. Not unless he died.
"Z, you're crazy. How can you say you want me to be with her? It'll kill you."
Zsadist's face changed and the expression was a shocker. Such sorrow, Phury thought. Of a depth that seemed impossible.
And then the male came forward. Phury braced himself for... God, he had no idea what was coming at him.
When Z's hand lifted, it was not in anger or with violence. And as Phury felt his twin's palm land lightly on his face, he couldn't remember the last time Z had touched him with any gentleness. Or touched him at all.
Zsadist's voice was low and quiet as his thumb went back and forth on an unmarred cheek.
"You are the male I might have been. You are the potential I had and lost. You are the honor and the strength and the kindness she needs. You'll take care of her. I want you to take care of her." Zsadist dropped his hand.
"It will be a good mating for her. With you as her hellren, she can hold her head up high. She can be proud to be seen with you at her side. She'll be socially invincible. The glymera won't be able to touch her."
Temptation swirled and condensed and became instinct in Phury. But what about his twin?
"Oh, God... Z. How could you stomach the idea that I was with her?"
Instantly all the softness was gone. "Whether it's you or someone else, the pain is the same. Besides, you think I'm not used to hurting?" Z's lips curled into a nasty little smile. "For me, it's home sweet home, my brother."
Phury thought of Bella and how she'd refused his vein. "But don't you think she gets a vote in all this?"
"She'll see the light. She's not stupid. Not by a long shot." Z turned away and started walking. Then he stopped. Without looking back he said, "There's another reason I want you to have her."
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"Is this one going to make sense?"
"You should be happy." Phury stopped breathing while Zsadist murmured, "You live less than half a life. You always have. She would care for you, and that... that would be good. I would like that for you."