and this, but I can’t help it. This is my first sexual experience with somebody other than Jeff. I’ve never seen or touched another man’s privates besides his and I’m kinda sorta nervous. I’ve had plenty of practice with silicone dildos, but never with anybody other than Jeffery.
Besides being scared, euphoric, and beyond aroused by this guy that has invaded my life and is turning everything upside down, I’m also trying to put this whole thing into perspective. Once we’re finished, I need to make sure my brain files this encounter and places it on the right shelf. To him, I’m just a quick lay, but he is my key to freedom. This means more to me than Liam will ever know. If I can do this with him, then I can do this with anybody, not just Jeffery Rossi.
He won’t take his eyes off me, and we haven’t said a word to each other since he named that damn song that he had no right knowing, let alone uttering it as I literally attacked him. I’ve never had this kind of connection, this type of understanding, a silent bond with another person, except Emily. I never even knew it was possible to have someone other than Emily get me.
I need to calm my feelings because I know this stranger doesn’t know me and how fucked up I am on the inside. He’s just sexually frustrated and I’m a willing participant, but since I’m also a liar, my heart has already convinced my head that he loves me, that he can’t take his eyes off of me, and that there is no one on earth he would rather be fucking and loving right now but me.
I thought when I first asked him to fuck me that I would be wishing and dreaming for him to be Jeff, but I’m not. This experience belongs to Liam and me and no one else. I can’t wait to see his eyes when he finally enters me. Just thinking about him being inside me makes me dizzy with lust. I don’t know much about him, but I do know that it won’t be the usual regret or sadness in his eyes that I always see in Jeff’s.
I’ve teased him enough. I open my mouth to finally have my first taste of Liam fucking Knight and I love how he watches me, waiting, holding his breath. I grip him with both hands and lick him from root to tip like a skilled slut, swirling my tongue from side to side. He sits up a bit to move all my hair off my face, making sure he gets a full view of both my mouth and my eyes as I attempt to suck his cock whole. I like the pained sounds that come out of his mouth; I can tell he’s trying hard not to make any noise. I stop the root-to-tip licking and open my mouth to take him in, to have my first fill of him. I’m only a few inches in before he jerks my head up by my hair with some force.
“I know I shouldn’t be talking, but I want you to know this is not how I imagined today would pan out. But there is no other place on Earth I would rather be than right here with you, Sara. I’m praying the feeling is mutual.”
I still have his dick in my mouth as he says this, which is kinda sweet, but hard to acknowledge in my current predicament. I try to give him a smile with a mouth full of cock, but I can’t get more of him in because he’s holding me back. I want to tell him to let go of my hair so I can continue sucking him off, but he merely looks at me with my mouth stretched wide, looking slightly confused. Maybe he doesn’t like my fellatio skills or maybe I’m supposed to be doing something else? But then he cups my scalp with both hands and starts guiding me further down while pushing himself into me, rewarding me with his sound effects. I thought I was in control of this blowjob business, but I’m mistaken; Liam has full control and I like it.
He has a firm grip on my head as he pumps himself into my mouth. I can see when he starts to lose it. His eyes fight to stay open and he struggles to keep calm. He’s acquired that deranged, panicked expression